“That’s soon. Are you ready?” “What do you mean? Damn skippy I’m ready.” There was a brief
silence and the n Zurich hit me with a low blow. “You know,
marrying woman doesn’t change who you are.” p.165
In this situation, Basil was very confused. Beside he realized that he is still the same person in his past, he realized too that he already
arrange the marriage. He said to Zurich that he still marrying woman. But, Basil’s deep thought said that everything could not change who he is. He
still loved a man.
What in the fuck did he mean by that? But, I was thinking it was true. Instead I said, “No, marrying a woman didn’t change you.”
“Are you going to still invite me to the wedding?”
“Let me give you this invitation, dude.” p.165
4.1.3 Climax
4.1.3.1 Basil called his ex before he met Yancey, Raymond, to be a part
of his Wedding
There was a long conversation on the phone between Basil and Raymond. he understood the reality about himself and tried to forget it.
For this, he was hiding his secret from Yancey. But, half of his mind, he said that Raymond’s words is true, even Yancey did not know who
Raymond is.
“Basil, listen to me. I’m honored that you would ask me to be a part of your big day. But I don’t think it’s such a good idea. I
don’t think it’s fair to you or your new bride. And man, when are you going to free yourself?”
“Does she know about me or the other guys you’ve shared, how shall I say this, the men you shared special moments with? Basil,
as long as you have secrets, you’ll never be free.” p.180
His mind said that he is still said that loving woman is the right thing and Yancey did not need to know about his past. It means that Basil
was afraid if Yancey got angry with him because he did not tell her from the beginning, even she would cancelled the wedding because of Basil’s
life in the past.
“That was the past. I love Yancey, i love her. And she doesn’t ne
ed to know everything.” p.180
4.1.3.2 Basil decided to cancel his marriage with Yancey and called
Raymond to fixed himself
Around Basil’s wedding with Yancey, he is confused about his life. Beside he was still attracted to man, Basil felt that Yancey kept
something from himself. So, he put the tape recorder on the table at Yancey’s apartment. He was convinced that there was something wrong
with his bride-to-be. The fact is Yancey already had a daughter with her ex-boyfriend and kept it from Basil. Also there was a conversation with
her mother that Yancey already knew about Basil’s past life.
It was impossible if he lived with a woman that did not take care of her child and kept a big secret like this. Basil was certain. After a couple
of sleepless nights he was more certain than he had been about anything in
his life. He decided to cancel his marriage plan with Yancey before everything’s happen. He knew his desire to be with man. He knew that
marriage will not change everything, and Yancey broke his heart too.
“I can’t marry you,” he said calmly. His voice was cool and controlled.
“What” she screamed. Have you lost your mind? Well, of course you have. What other kind of fool would do this to somebody?”
Yancey said without taking a breath. “Yancey, I’m going to say this for the last time and then I’m
going to hang up. I can’t marry you.” “But why?”
“Yancey, you know why,” Basil said firmly. p.215
Basil called Raymond and said that his marriage with Yancey was over. This situation could bring Basil to be with a man again. He told
Raymond that females are not right and he did not want a wedding in his life. His desire is to be with man. Basil thought he had a chance to back to
his real life again because Raymond would by Basil’s side if Basil need him.
“Don’t worry. I don’t need you in my wedding ‘cause there ain’t gonna be one,” I said.
“Females are shit.” I said loudly. “I don’t know whassup, but I’m here if you need me.” Raymond
said.
“Are you real
ly?” “Yeah.” p.216
4.1.4 Falling Action
