blame on her mother because she send her grandparents a card and made this complicated situation. Margaret did some simple rebellion by protesting her
mother because her mother abandoned her feelings and her opinion. Margaret also starts to ignore what her parents say to her about something.
Now thats my point about my mother. I mean, if she understands so much about me then why couldnt she understand that I had to wear loafers
without socks? I told her, Nancy says nobody in the sixth grade wears socks on the first day of school Blume, 1970: 24
In the first day of school, Margaret went to school without wearing socks. She follows what Nancy said not to wears socks in the first day because she wants
Margaret to join her in secret club, and if Margaret wears socks, Nancy afraid that the other kids might not want her to join. Even though she insists not to wear
socks, her mother told her to wear socks because she will get blister by walking three quarter miles. Margaret begins to ignore what her mother suggests to her and
prefers to follow what Nancy says not wearing socks.
c. Self Anxiety
Everybody feels anxious sometimes, especially when faced with unfamiliar, dangerous or stressful situations. Anxiety can include body signals
such as a sinking feeling, tense or uncomfortable feelings, or nerves. It‘s a normal
reaction to challenging situations. Self anxiety in adolescence might worry about starting first school, looking a particular way, fitting in with friends, body
condition and the way of thought about something. Margaret shows some herself anxiety and something around her.
Are you there God? Its me, Margaret I hate to remi nd you God … I mean,
I know youre busy. But its already December and Im not growing. At
least I dont see any real difference. Isnt it time God? Dont you think Ive waited patiently? Please help me Blume, 1970: 81
The quotation describes that Margaret is a person who is not feel confident
with her condition. She is not confident because of her body. In the beginning of the story, Margaret is characterized as an adolescent who physically has not
developed yet. She has differences in her body because she experiences late physical development. Margaret does not have a good posture as her friend.
Because of her differences she begins worry about herself. Margaret worries about what her friends thought about her that she is not normal like the other friends.
She even asks to God to make her physical changes grow quickly. Although she worries about her physical development which is not grown
up yet, she worries about being a teenager as well. Margaret finds being a teenager is kind a rotten because she needs to deal with more physical appearance
problem like pimples and smell of your body. She emphasizes her feeling by saying “If you ask me, being a teenager is pretty rotten—between pimples and
worrying about how you sm ell” Blume, 1970: 25.
Another thing that she worries is about the way how other people think about her. Margaret is a person who cares a lot about her image, physically and
personality. She wants to make a good impression to the people around her so that they do not think that Margaret is kind a weird or an odd girl.
My parents dont know I actually talk to God. I mean, if I told them theyd think I was some kind of religious fanatic or something. So I keep it very
private. I can talk to him without moving my lips if I have to Blume, 1970: 14.
Even though to her parents, she wants to build a good impression in the
way she thought about God. She chooses to keep her relationship with God in private. Margaret never gets a lesson about a particular religion from her parents,
they give Margaret a freedom to choose which religion she really beliefs. Knowing her parents are not really into one particular religion, Margaret does not
want to make her parents worry by thinking of her that she is kind of religion or fanatic into one.
On the other hand, Margaret really wants to be a normal girl in her social life. She really wants to deem to be someone who is normal like the other person
in her age. I hoped he decided I was normal, after all. I lived in New York for eleven
and a half years and I dont think anybody ever asked me about my religion. I never even thought about it. Now, all of a sudden, it was the big
thing in my life Blume, 1970: 39
In the quotation above, Margaret shows her anxiousness of her thought
about religion toward Mr. Benedict. Margaret is a girl who just moved from New York City to Farbrook, New Jersey. Margaret finds something different by living
in two different places, in New York and in New Jersey. When Margaret was lived in New York she never thought about religion or something which is private,
because people in New York barely ever ask something personal and detail. After she moved to New Jersey, she got a culture shock because some personal and
detail questions asked by people around them. That condition forces Margaret to think about how she will explain about her religious status to people who live
around her now.
d. Sexual Feeling
