“I have something for you. Some of the card and letter you send Annie nad Zach. The ones they never opened.” Paige looked up.
“you mean, were never allowed to open?” The Underside of Joy : 354
Ella is also a fair person. She judges the problem not only from her point of view but she looks from the avidences about that problem. A fair person usually has comfortable and
happy life, because she uses her comman sense to solve the problem. She should not fight to the others to get the same thing that they want, and she doesn’t mind if she gets punishment
for her fouls. It shows that she is not an acquisitive person, she knows what is her rights and what is not. After knowing the true story from Paige’s aunt, aunt Bernnie, she realises that
Paige is their birth mother but she is their mother who takes care and love them everyday. For the first time she hears that, she does not agree but after thinking it again and again,
finally she agrees with aunt Bernnie that Paige deserves to live with with Annie and Zach, because she is their birth mother. And it’s better for Paige and the children, so she decides to
go to Paige’ house and tells her about it. “Paige is their mother; she deserves to be their mother. But I see
myself in you, and I understand your pain—and your love.” The Underside of Joy : 350
3.2 Paige
She is a schizophrenia who gets physicist distraction. She always frightened and feels unsafe in her own house. She has hallucination for her mother who has died and always
follows her. It shows that she is a person who is feud, she can not forgive and forget someone’s faults easily, and also a quiet and closer person who doesn’t want share her story
to somebody else to help her free from her frightened. And because she doesn’t want share her problem, it can be indicate that she is a priggish woman. She doesn’t think that
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socialization with other person is important. So, that’s why she does not have friends and always alone.
Usually someone becomes schizophrenia because she can not forget her bad experiences in her past and also can not forgive it. It would be adverse herself because many
physicist ilnesses can force her. It begins from stess to much and finally can disturb her thought and the bad things will happen to her life, she could be crazy. Although it sounds
terrible, but it could be recovered Paige becomes schizophrenia because she has traumatic in her past, and she can not
forget that. she keeps the story in herself, she does not want to share it to the others. It always makes her worried and frightened. And the trauma can not be deleted easily, need much time
to lose it. So Paige tries to lose her trauma by leaving her children, because she gets that trauma while she is a child. She can not look at her children, since it makes her remembers
her bad experience in the past. She always feels frightened and afraid of her children, she thinks that her children will get the same thing with her past. It makes her unable to be a
mother for her children. “Paige kept telling me what a terrible mother she was. That should
have never had a baby. She cried all the time. She looked at Annie like she was nothing more than an odd-shaped lamp.” The
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Because of that, she becomes a selfish woman. She does not care about her children, husband and her responsibility as a wife and mother anymore. She tries to go out from the
trouble without any discussion with her husband. She just thinks herself, thinks the best things for her life, ignore people’s judgement about her, and does not have shame and feel
guilty. And it makes her be egoistic and also a bad mother for her children, because she never takes care of them and go away to run her own life.
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“Please stop calling. I know you are trying. This isn’t what I wanted, either. What if something had happened to Annie or
Zach? Think about that, Joe. I think I can live with leaving, but not if I’d hurt them.” The Underside of Joy : 258
By leaving her children, she becomes a selfish mother. The selfish person is a person who does not have love to the others any more. The important thing for her is herself, she
only thinking for her best, her needed, and her own happiness. She also becomes a bad mother, she doesn’t care about her children, her husband, and her responsible as a wife and
as a mother. “She abandoned my grandbabies, Ella. Zach was only two months
old. He was still taking the breast Do you how much he screamed and cried those first weeks, while we tried to get him used to the
bottle? She has no rights as their mother. You are their mother.” The Underside of Joy : 239
And the way she does to lose her frightened makes her becomes hedonism. She only thinks her own happiness and only care to herself. She wants to show her wealth to the other
people, that it makes her be arrogant. She needs an admission that is the great woman. She does all of that to overcome her illnesses, to make people think that her life if wonderful. She
tries to hide her weaknesses by manipulating her appearance to other people. She shows her big house, her large swimming pool in the house, her good outside appearances. She only
thinks the best things for her life, she ignores other people’s judgement about her, and she does not have guilty.
It also makes her be anti-social, who does not have relationship in the social life. She is closed with her environment, and does not want to have communication. It could be seen
from Paige’s life who does not have friends in her life, and many people hate her. She lives alone, no friends, no family, and no socialization. She prefers alone to have family and
friends. Because she has a big secret in her life and she does not want to share it and anyone knows that.
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4. CONCLUSION AND SUGGESTION 4.1 Conclusions
