Linda, Linda, Linda, when will you learn? Anybody who puts garbage in a box has got to be queer. Ill be inside those boxes were old eyebrow
pencils. How do you know? Im not going to prejudge anybody, and what if he is
queer… that doesnt mean he wont change if he meet the right girl. Parent, 1972: 49.
Sheila is being negative thinking is shown that she is not accepting herself.
She is affraid to face the reality since the things in her life is not going well as she expects. Both her carrier and her love life are not going well and she is feeling that
she has already failed in this life.
A. New York’s Lifestyle Described through the Setting in Sheila Levine is
Dead and Living in New York 1.
Promiscuous
New York city is one of many modern cities in this world. There are many people who want to live in this city. People who come to this city is looking for an
education, job and also love life. There are many lifestyles in New York city as a modern city. One of them
is premarital sexual intercourse. People who stay here makes that become their lifestyle. It would be not a big problem if there is a girls who is not virgin.
In New York City there are one million single girls who wear a size nine, have straight hair, and have never had a pimple. Not one of these girl is a
virgin Parent, 1972: 30. The first time Sheila loses her virginity when she is in the college. She has
her first sexual intercourse with a gay named Will Fisher when the first time she meets
him. It happens when Sheila’s friend Diane invites her to join her to Colgate to watch a game. After the game, they go to a small Italian restaurant and then go
to an apartment where the boys share. Then, Sheila loses her viginity with Will Fisher. Here is the statement which shows that.
“So, finally, as the sun was beginning to rise, I, Sheila Levine, let Will Fisher touch me you know where and
did you know what .” Parent, 1972: 10.
At first, Sheila refuses Will’s invitation to do that thing but at the end, Sheila gives up and let Will do the thing that he wants even though it is their first meeting.
It shows that Sheila also wants to get into a sexual intercourse with him. Since that time, Sheila’s social life in Syracuse rises. She sleeps with
different guys in every week. She also calls “an easy lay.” Parent,1972: 11. But I would like to say thank you to you, Will, belated as it may be. Because
of you, my social life at old Syracuse blossomed. I slept with a ZBT and a Sammy in one week Parent, 1972: 11.
Sheila Levine is an easy lay. All you have to do is call her. You don’t have to buy her a drink or take her to parties or anything. You don’t even have to
be seen with her in public. Just call her and lay her Parent, 1972: 11. The sexual intercourse has its own advantages for Sheila. By doing this, she
does not have to do exercise anymore and she can lose some weight. She also thinks that she does not have to eat while having sex with guy. She seems to enjoy this
sexual intercourse eventhough she does not have a special relationship with the guys who sleeps with her. She thinks that she enjoys during do that and at the same
time she can lose some of her weight. I’m glad. All that sleeping around did two good things for me. First of all, I
lost a little weight. FACT: The average sex act uses up about a hundred and fifty calories.
Really, that is a fact. And you don’t eat while you fuck. Therefore, the more you fuck, the less you eat. It’s the best diet I’ve ever been on.
Second of all, all that sleeping around got me rid of my sexual hang-ups. Whadda you mean, Mom, don’t let a boy touch you, you know where? It
feels good when they touch you, you know where Parent, 1972: 11-12.
Sheila’s sexual intercourse increases. She has sexual intercourse with a guy that she meets in her Hallowen party in her apartment. That guy named Norman
Berkowitz. She is being aggressive to Norman. She feels comfortable to have sex with guys she just meets.
I was going crazy from the kissing and feeling, so I started-I became aggressive. I grabbed his you know what with a definite purpose in mind.
“It’s not okay.” “Norman, it’s okay.”
“It’s noy okay. I would never forgive myself.” “Norman, it’s okay. I’m not a virgin.”
“I am.” The
truth. I’m telling the truth. I was, at this point, holding the penis of a virgin male... Parent, 1972: 66-67.
After few times, Sheila has another sexual intercourse with another man
beside Norman. This man is Thomas Brown. She meets him at the bar when Sheila visits the bar. After that, she finds out herself is pregnant but she does not know
whether its Norman Berkowitz or Thomas Brown is the real father of the baby in her womb. She thinks that abortion is the easiest way to solve the problem.
“New York is so abortion-minded, its part of the culture
.” Parent, 1972: 149. “And what about a good lay? Don’t you like a good lay?”
“Sure I do. I like a good lay as much as the next person.” And I went there and, okay, we did it. It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t good either
Parent, 1972: 145-146. I had an abortion Parent, 1972: 146.
I didn’t know if the little baby inside me was the son of Normal Berkowitz or Thomas Brown Parent, 1972: 148.
I wasn’t feeling very maternal, and I didn’t feel that I was destroying a life. The abortion seemed like the easiest way out Parent, 1972: 148.
