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Do not ever talk like that to me again. Nathans mouth presses against my ear, his voice low and cruel. I should not have asked you
to come here.110
In this conversation that Natan hurt Agnes again. And Agnes wanted to run
away from Natan but Nathan exactly slap Agnes. Then Nathan reminds Agnes to not speak thus about dream and a strange foreboding. But Agnes soothes Natan otherwise
would no one harm him because Natan is not that important. And Agnes are fed up with the nature of temper but Agnes still loves him and remained at his side although
he was always tormented by Natan. And there are other statement that describes Natan always hurt Agnes.
I want you I want to leave the valley because I want to be with you. I felt sick was so angry. I cannot stand it any longer here.
Then, go She took a step back and pulling my hand. Get out Youve just cause trouble
Let me go Im just giving you what you want. You hate me? You want to go?
Good This is the door. 112
It happened because Agnes thought Natan was always blaming her. And Agnes cannot stand with Natan, who had only thought of her as him maid. Natan as Agnes
could only cause problems in her life, Agnes considered as bitchy and Natan wanted
when he needed Agnes.
Sometimes Agnes asks again to Natan about her status and her position. Do you love me?
You start to wander. Answer.
Turn off the lights.
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Nathan. I begged him Am I going to ask you here if I do not want you here?
Yes, as a servant. Youre more than a maid, Agnes.
You are lying. Turn off the lights.
No. Youre annoying, Agnes.
In this statement, Nathan still does not want to talk about it. When Agnes asked about her position, Nathan always refused and angry he did not want to talk about it.
3.2.5 Self Actualization Need in Agnes’s Life
In this part, it will discuss about Agnes Magnusdottir choice that decides to unmarried with Natan. In statement before that discussed, Agnes wants to marry with
him own without any relation of church or state because Natan does not marry with Agnes, but Agnes always asks to Natan .So, until she is pregnant they do not marry.
“Couldn’t we be married privately some way? Then if anything happen to me or if you had a child.”
“There’s no way to be married except by church or state. We are married privately.”
You see, it would mean everything to me if I had any religion. But I haven’t any religion.”50
It is for the first time Agnes asks to Natan to marry legally, but Natan refuse because she has not religious and offers Agnes to marry privately, but Agnes refuse because
marriage must in the church or state way, there is no marriage except in that place. For the second time, Agnes asks Natan to marry when Agnes in her
pregnancy, Natan refuses again.
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“I suppose if we really have this child we ought to get married” Natan said. We were in beer place at the corner table. It was getting
getting dark outside. It was still early but the day was dark and the dusk was coming early.
“Let’s get married now” I said “No,” Natan said “Remember who you are Agnes”123
In this statement, Natan refuses to marry because he does not believe in certain religion and he want to marry privately, but Agnes refuses. In the second time,
Agnes asks Natan again to marry, but Natan refuses with different reason. At the time, Agnesis pregnant in some months, because of that Agnes always ask to Natan.
But Natan always have different reason to ignore Agnes and if Agnes asks like that Natan always angry with Agnes. So, it can be conclude that Natan does not want to
marry with Agnes. For the three times, Agnes asks Natan to marry. But Natan refuses clearly, it
can be known from the conversation: “When will we be married?”
“Any time, we want to have a splendid wedding with every one thinking what a handsome couple.”
“And you’re not worried?” “Why should I be worried?”
“Please Agnes don’t make me angry, remember who you are Remember your p
lace”127
As a woman Agnes wants to appear beautiful with body shape that she wants, especially in meaningful event like marriage. Feminist side of Agnes appears to
require her to marry in body shape like she wants. In this conversation, Agnes feels sh
y in pregnancy condition that woman‟s stomach will look big. But Natan ignore Agnes again and angry again.
