I told him the rest, the meeting with Assef, the fight, Sohrab and his slingshot, our escape back to

I told him the rest, the meeting with Assef, the fight, Sohrab and his slingshot, our escape back to

Pakistan. When I was done, he scribbled a few notes, breathed in deeply, and gave me a sober look. “Well, Amir, you’ve got a tough battle ahead of you.”

“One I can win?”

He capped his pen. “At the risk of sounding like Raymond Andrews, it’s not likely. Not impossible, but hardly likely.” Gone was the affable smile, the playful look in his eyes.

“But it’s kids like Sohrab who need a home the most,” I said. “These rules and regulations don’t make any sense to me.”

“You’re preaching to the choir, Amir,” he said. “But the fact is, take current immigration laws, adoption agency policies, and the political situation in Afghanistan, and the deck is stacked against you.”

“I don’t get it,” I said. I wanted to hit something. “I mean, I get it but I don’t get it.”

Omar nodded, his brow furrowed. “Well, it’s like this. In the aftermath of a disaster, whether it be natural or man-made--and the Taliban are a disaster, Amir, believe me--it’s always difficult to ascertain that a child is an orphan. Kids get displaced in refugee camps, or parents just abandon them because they can’t take care of them. Happens all the time. So the INS won’t grant a visa unless it’s clear the child meets the definition of an eligible orphan. I’m sorry, I know it sounds ridiculous, but you need death certificates.”

“You’ve been to Afghanistan,” I said. “You know how improbable that is.”

“I know,” he said. “But let’s suppose it’s clear that the child has no surviving parent. Even then, the INS thinks it’s good adoption practice to place the child with someone in his own country so his heritage can be preserved.”

“What heritage?” I said. “The Taliban have destroyed what heritage Afghans had. You saw what they did to the giant Buddhas in Bamiyan.”

“I’m sorry, I’m telling you how the INS works, Amir,” Omar said, touching my arm. He glanced at Sohrab and smiled. Turned back to me. “Now, a child has to be legally adopted according to the laws and regulations of his own country. But when you have a country in turmoil, say a country like Afghanistan, government offices are busy with emergencies, and processing adoptions won’t be a top priority.”

I sighed and rubbed my eyes. A pounding headache was settling in just behind them.

“But let’s suppose that somehow Afghanistan gets its act together,” Omar said, crossing his arms on his protruding belly. “It still may not permit this adoption. In fact, even the more moderate Muslim nations are hesitant with adoptions because in many of those countries, Islamic law, Shari’a, doesn’t recognize adoption.”

“You’re telling me to give it up?” I asked, pressing my palm to my forehead.

“I grew up in the U.S., Amir. If America taught me anything, it’s that quitting is right up there with pissing in the Girl Scouts’ lemonade jar. But, as your lawyer, I have to give you the facts,” he said. “Finally, adoption agencies routinely send staff members to evaluate the child’s milieu, and no reasonable agency is going to send an agent to Afghanistan.”

I looked at Sohrab sitting on the bed, watching TV, watching us. He was sitting the way his father used to, chin resting on one knee.

“I’m his half uncle, does that count for anything?”

“It does if you can prove it. I’m sorry, do you have any papers or anyone who can support you?”

“No papers,” I said, in a tired voice. “No one knew about it. Sohrab didn’t know until I told him, and I myself didn’t find out until recently. The only other person who knows is gone, maybe dead.”

“What are my options, Omar?”

“I’ll be frank. You don’t have a lot of them.”

“Well, Jesus, what can I do?”

Omar breathed in, tapped his chin with the pen, let his breath out. “You could still file an orphan petition, hope for the best. You could do an independent adoption. That means you’d have to live with Sohrab here in Pakistan, day in and day out, for the next two years. You could seek asylum on his behalf. That’s a lengthy process and you’d have to prove political persecution. You could request a humanitarian visa. That’s at the discretion of the attorney general and it’s not easily given.” He paused. “There is another option, probably your best shot.”

“What?” I said, leaning forward.

“You could relinquish him to an orphanage here, then file an orphan petition. Start your I-600 form and your home study while he’s in a safe place.”

“What are those?”

“I’m sorry, the 1-600 is an INS formality. The home study is done by the adoption agency you choose,” Omar said. “It’s, you know, to make sure you and your wife aren’t raving lunatics.”

“I don’t want to do that,” I said, looking again at Sohrab. “I promised him I wouldn’t send him back to an orphanage.” “Like I said, it may be your best shot.”

We talked a while longer. Then I walked him out to his car, an old VW Bug. The sun was setting on Islamabad by then, a flaming red nimbus in the west. I watched the car tilt under Omar’s weight as

he somehow managed to slide in behind the wheel. He rolled down the window. “Amir?”

“Yes.”

“I meant to tell you in there, about what you’re trying to do? I think it’s pretty great.” He waved as he pulled away. Standing outside the hotel room and waving back, I wished Soraya could be there with me.

SOHRAB HAD TURNED OFF THE TV when l went back into the room. I sat on the edge of my bed, asked him to sit next to me. “Mr. Faisal thinks there is a way I can take you to America with me,” I said.

“He does?” Sohrab said, smiling faintly for the first time in days. “When can we go?”

“Well, that’s the thing. It might take a little while. But he said it can be done and he’s going to help us.” I put my hand on the back of his neck. From outside, the call to prayer blared through the streets.

“How long?” Sohrab asked. “I don’t know. A while.” Sohrab shrugged and smiled, wider this time. “I don’t mind. I can wait. It’s like the sour apples.” “Sour apples?” “One time, when I was really little, I climbed a tree and ate these green, sour apples. My stomach

swelled and became hard like a drum, it hurt a lot. Mother said that if I’d just waited for the apples to ripen, I wouldn’t have become sick. So now, whenever I really want something, I try to remember what she said about the apples.”

“Sour apples,” I said. “_Mashallah_, you’re just about the smartest little guy I’ve ever met, Sohrab jan.” His ears reddened with a blush. “Will you take me to that red bridge? The one with the fog?” he said. “Absolutely,” I said. “Absolutely.” “And we’ll drive up those streets, the ones where all you see is the hood of the car and the sky?” “Every single one of them,” I said. My eyes stung with tears and I blinked them away. “Is English hard to learn?”

“I say, within a year, you’ll speak it as well as Farsi.” “Really?” “Yes.” I placed a finger under his chin, turned his face up to mine. “There is one other thing,

Sohrab.” “What?” “Well, Mr. Faisal thinks that it would really help if we could... if we could ask you to stay in a home

for kids for a while.” “Home for kids?” he said, his smile fading. “You mean an orphanage?” “It would only be for a little while.” “No,” he said. “No, please.” “Sohrab, it would be for just a little while. I promise.” “You promised you’d never put me in one of those places, Amir agha,” he said. His voice was

breaking, tears pooling in his eyes. I felt like a prick.

“This is different. It would be here, in Islamabad, not in Kabul. And I’d visit you all the time until we can get you out and take you to America.” “Please! Please, no!” he croaked. “I’m scared of that place. They’ll hurt me! I don’t want to go.” “No one is going to hurt you. Not ever again.”

“Yes they will! They always say they won’t but they lie. They lie! Please, God!”

I wiped the tear streaking down his cheek with my thumb. “Sour apples, remember? It’s just like the sour apples,” I said softly.

“No it’s not. Not that place. God, oh God. Please, no!” He was trembling, snot and tears mixing on

his face. “Shhh.” I pulled him close, wrapped my arms around his shaking little body. “Shhh. It’ll be all right. We’ll go home together. You’ll see, it’ll be all right.”

His voice was muffled against my chest, but I heard the panic in it. “Please promise you won’t! Oh God, Amir agha! Please promise you won’t!”

How could I promise? I held him against me, held him tightly, and rocked badk and forth. He wept into my shirt until his tears dried, until his shaking stopped and his frantic pleas dwindled to indecipherable mumbles. I waited, rocked him until his breathing slowed and his body slackened. I remembered something I had read somewhere a long time ago: That’s how children deal with terror. They fall asleep.

I carried him to his bed, set him down. Then I lay in my own bed, looking out the window at the purple sky over Islamabad. THE SKY WAS A DEEP BLACK when the phone jolted me from sleep. I rubbed my eyes and turned on the bedside lamp. It was a little past 10:30 P.M.; I’d been sleeping for almost three hours. I picked up the phone. “Hello?”

“Call from America.” Mr. Fayyaz’s bored voice. “Thank you,” I said. The bathroom light was on; Sohrab was taking his nightly bath. A couple of

clicks and then Soraya: “Salaam!” She sounded excited. “How did the meeting go with the lawyer?”

I told her what Omar Faisal had suggested. “Well, you can forget about it,” she said. “We won’t

have to do that.”

I sat up. “Rawsti? Why, what’s up?” “I heard back from Kaka Sharif. He said the key was getting Sohrab into the country. Once he’s in,

there are ways of keeping him here. So he made a few calls to his INS friends. He called me back tonight and said he was almost certain he could get Sohrab a humanitarian visa.”

“No kidding?” I said. “Oh thank God! Good ol’ Sharifjan!” “I know. Anyway, we’ll serve as the sponsors. It should all happen pretty quickly. He said the visa

would be good for a year, plenty of time to apply for an adoption petition.” “It’s really going to happen, Soraya, huh?” “It looks like it,” she said. She sounded happy. I told her I loved her and she said she loved me

back. I hung up. “Sohrab!” I called, rising from my bed. “I have great news.” I knocked on the bathroom door.

“Sohrab! Soraya jan just called from California. We won’t have to put you in the orphanage, Sohrab. We’re going to America, you and I. Did you hear me? We’re going to America!”

I pushed the door open. Stepped into the bathroom. Suddenly I was on my knees, screaming. Screaming through my clenched teeth. Screaming until I

thought my throat would rip and my chest explode.

Later, they said I was still screaming when the ambulance arrived.