Obedient Olga’s Personality Description
35 known that her granddaughter warns Olga that she will leave her and vanish; Olga
thinks that actually her granddaughter wants Olga to ask her to stay. However, Olga does not tell her granddaughter that actually she wishes her
to stay. Instead of telling the truth, she shows her approval to her granddaughter. Notwithstanding, she wants her granddaughter not to take hurried decision. It is
supported by her statement ”I didn’t want my approval to propel you into hasty decisions you weren’t perfectly sure about” p. 30. Although she seems to agree
outside, she wants her granddaughter to reconsider her decision to study abroad. Another evidence which shows Olga’s true will is in Olga’s words ”For me, of
course it would be much nicer to have you beside me when I go” p. 18. That statement is about Olga’s wish. In fact, she hides it from her granddaughter. She is
an introvert. Olga is introverted because she does not want to fight with her
granddaughter. She feels that she is weak enough to face her granddaughter’s manner.
I never answered you, though, because I sensed that the time for dialogue was over, whatever I might say would only lead to a fight. For one thing, I
was afraid of my own frailty, afraid to waste my strength, and for another I felt that an open confrontation was just what you were looking for and
that others would follow on its heels, one after another, each more violent than the last p. 29.
Olga is just afraid that if she reveals her honest opinion, she cannot stand on debate and confrontation. Her reaction toward their agreement also shows her
introversion “I know that one of the agreements we made when you left was that we wouldn’t write, and I’m sticking to it, but reluctantly” p. 14. It is obvious
36 that actually Olga does not agree with the agreement. Nonetheless, she cannot be
extroverted. Olga does not have any enough courage to refuse it. Moreover, Olga also hides the fact or even stories about her daughter.
Telling her granddaughter about her daughter can only bring regret for herself. Even sometimes when she looks at her granddaughter, it can bring her memory to
her daughter. She says, “Shyness and a good deal of selfishness were the reasons why I never brought up the subject before. I shied away from talking about your
mother because that would inevitably lead to talking about myself and my misdeeds” p. 31. According to Olga, shyness and selfishness are the reasons
why she is introverted. She will feel guilty if she talks about her daughter. Olga admits
, “Though so many years have passed, it still gives me no pleasure to talk about my family, my mother has remained in my memory as motionless and
hostile as a janissary” p. 51. Not only memory about her daughter but also memory about her mother brings her into sadness.