Approach of the Study

surrender all herself for him and to be devoted to him in any way he likes. All she looks up is him as she reflects this by doing everything he instructs. She takes his orders as the obligation for her to do. By doing so, she shows how a woman should address themselves and their men. She learns how to address Grey as her man. Being a devoted person, Steele is also eager to put aside her feelings. She sacrifices herself for Grey although she thinks what she does is wrong for her. She tries to think that if the thing is right for him, then she has to take it and ignore her feeling. T his is so… I want to think wrong , but somehow it‘s not. It‘s right for Christian. It‘s what he wants – and after the last few days… after all he‘s done, I have to man up and take whatever he decides he wants, whatever he thinks he needs. James, 2011: 336 When Steele thinks something is wrong for her, but it is right for Grey, she tries to re-think her opinion about it. She decides to put aside her feeling and to follow what he wants, instead. It happens because as a woman, she knows that she has to consider Grey as her leader in the relationship and to follow him. Thus, she begins to consider Grey‘s decision is right and important for her and the relationship. As a woman, Steele is portrayed as a dependent woman. Dependency needs devotion and she is already devoted to Grey. Because she is dependent, she cannot live alone without him. First evidence is clearly proved in Steele‘s subconscious, ―My inner goddess is jumping up and down, clapping her hands like a five-year-old. Please, let’s do this…otherwise we’ll end up alone with lots of cats and your classic novels to keep you company ” James, 2011: 125. Her mind tells her to do anything Grey commands because there is a fear of being left if she refuses all the things he wants. The second evidence is also seen through her subconscious. ―The idea that I might not see him again haunts me, unwelcome a nd too painful to contemplate‖ James, 2011: 160. From the evidence, Steele shows how she considers the relationship with Grey is very important and because of that she is afraid of losing him. She does not want it happen since it will be so painful for her to lose him. Tentatively, I uncurl my legs. Should I run? This is it, our relationship hangs in the balance, right here, right now. Do I let him do this or do I say no, and then that‘s it? Because I know it will be over if I say no. Do it My inner goddess pleads with me, my subconscious is as paralyzed as I am. James, 2011: 192 The quotation above emphasizes her feeling about having relationship with Grey. She chooses to follow him so that she will not lose him. Her thought represents her dependency because even though she wants to run from him, she finally decides not to do so. Her dependency on Grey basically refers to the issue of her low self- determination. It is the ability to decide one‘s own life, the action, and the fate by not being interfered by the others. Having low self-determination means Steele cannot make her own decision towards their relationship. She is influenced easily by Grey‘s manipulation or certain circumstances created intentionally by Grey. The first evidence is seen through her hesitation about herself in his eyes. ―Is he worthy of me? That‘s an interesting concept. I always wonder whether I am worthy of him‖ James, 2011: 196. It is clear that she needs approval from others to reassure her that she is really worthy of Grey. She is not able to reassure herself