answering, meaning that it is yes. She is unable to control her thought and action to act as what it should be.
Parvana shows several actions and behaviors that signify if she has a fear and lack of confidence to face the restriction
to women’s movement made by the Taliban group. The rule that really hampers women’s movement is they
cannot go outside of their house freely. Therefore, whenever the Taliban soldiers know there are women who are outside without acceptable reasons,
they will get severe physical punishment. Firstly, Parvana speaks slower and disclose her presence because she is scared that they realize her existence.
Secondly, the feelings of fear and lack of confidence are represented by crying. Thirdly, Parvana objects her mother’s suggestion to disguise as a boy because
she is too frightened that someone will know her true identity. Lastly, she cannot act properly due to the frightening feeling when she meets Taliban
soldier who wants to get his letter read.
2. Desperation and Unwillingness to Struggle
Gender inequality does not only create a feeling of fear and lack of confidence, but it also generates other harms on female children’s life. The
other harms of gender inequality to female children are desperation and unwillingness to struggle. People who are desperate lose a hope that there will
be a better change in the future. Therefore, the desperation eventually creates further impact that is unwillingness to struggle in order to survive. They stuck
on a passive state not to do anything because they believe that any action they do will not bring any result.
Female children in Taliban society face the difficult time in dealing with gender inequality. They express their desperation and unwillingness to struggle
in various ways. Firstly, the feeling of desperation is represented by Nooria in this datum: “How can we be brave?” Nooria asked. “We can’t even go outside.
How can we lead men into battle? I’ve seen enough war. I don’t want to see any more
” Ellis, 2000: 29. The restriction to women to go outside has made Nooria lose her bravery.
She keeps asking how she can have such a bravery to lead the war. Keeping asking the question is a sign that she has a doubt that she can create a change. It
signifies the desperation that she feels. She gives up hoping that she can be brave to lead the battle. She does not have a hope at all to make everything
better. Furtherm ore, Nooria’s expression also shows that she does not want to
make some efforts to go outside. She does not want to see a war again, so she does nothing. It means that she does not struggle to create a better condition.
Secondly, unwillingness to struggle is shown by Parvana when she is asked by Nooria to get some foods for her family.
“We’re out of food,” Nooria told Parvana. “Don’t tell me. Tell Mother. She’s the grown up. She has to get us some.”
“I don’t want to bother her.” “Then I’ll tell her.” Parvana went over to Mother’s toshak and gently
shook her. “We’re out of food.” There was no response. “Mother, there’s no food
left.” Mother pulled away. Parvana started to shake her again. Ellis, 2000: 51
Nooria signs Parvana that they no longer have food. It means that Nooria wants Parvana to go out and get some foods for her family. The datum above
shows that Parvana rejects Nooria’s request because she thinks that she does
not have responsibility to get them some food since she is a child. She believes that it is her mother’s job. She rejects it because getting the foods means that
she has to go out of her house. It means that she will face the danger outside of being punished by the Taliban when she is caught up that she is a girl. Parvana
does not want this thing happen to her. Therefore, she does not want to go out. She does not want to help her family even though her mother is not in a good
condition. She gives the entire burden to her mother who is helpless. Thirdly, the desperation feeling is experienced also by Shauzia. Shauzia is
Parvana’s classmate whom she meets in the market. Similar to Parvana, Shauzia also disguises herself as a boy. Shauzia’s desperation and
unwillingness to struggles are portrayed in this datum: “You’ll leave your family? How will they eat?”
“I can’t help that” Shauzia’s voice rose and caught, as she tried not to cry. “I just have to get out of here. I know that makes me a bad person, but
what else can I do? I’ll die if I have to stay here” Ellis, 2000: 127
The datum above implies the Shauzia’s desperation who wants to go from
Kabul. She thinks that she cannot do anything to change the condition. She believes that staying in Kabul only gives harms. She has to disguise as boy to
live there and she gains threats wherever she goes. The Taliban soldiers will catch her and simply kill her whenever they know Shauzia is not a real boy.
Shauzia is so hopeless to think about a better future she will have in Kabul. She realizes that she is just powerless to make anything better. Therefore, she wants
to escape from Kabul. It shows how Shauzia really cannot find the best solution for the problem of gender inequality in the Taliban society. As a
result, Shauzia also does not have any willingness to try in order to cope with the problems. She is so helpless. Hence, she lets anything happen to her
without any attempts to fight back. Fourthly, Nooria shows another expression of desperation. Even after she
starts her secret school, she still does not feel better to live in the Taliban society.
Nooria nodded. “Look at my life here, Parvana. I hate living under the Taliban. I’m tired of looking after the little ones. My school classes
happen so seldom, they’re of almost no value. There’s no future for me here. At least in Mazar I can go to school, walk the streets without having
to wear a burqa, and get a job when I’ve completed school. Maybe in Mazar I can have some kind of life. Yes, I want to do this.” Ellis, 2000:
136
Nooria complains to Parvana for living under the rule of Taliban people. She is tired of anything. It is tiresome to take care of her brother. She does not
enjoy her teaching activity. She thinks that there is no future for her in Kabul. Similar to Shauzia, Nooria wants to escape from Kabul. She believes that in
Mazar, her life will be better. She can pursue her education and job. She can go outside freely without burqa. These things are the regulations that the Taliban
made to women. These make Nooria surrender to live in Kabul. Nooria also does not have attempts to do a real action to make a better condition of life.
Under the Taliban rule, women and female children should work even harder to survive in Kabul. They cannot go outside and they cannot get
education or jobs. Furthermore, they should wear a burqa, a heavy piece of
clothes which completely covers their body except for seeing and breathing.
Therefore, it makes them difficult to move and walk Ellis, 2000: 20. These
rules make Parvana, Shauzia and Nooria desperate to see a better future for them. These cause them to be reluctant and even completely passive to struggle
to create any changes.
3. Dependency
