What I felt during the first time in learning English, at first I was scred because of my English ability is very weak. From that effect when I was studying at the class first
semester I was difficult to adapt with my friends because of different cultures whereas, Papua and Javanes are different dialect as a Javanes language. And also in my motivation
to learnt English education issaya ingin menjadi guru bahasa Inggris, sebab saat saya di SMP SMA disana tidak ada guru bahasa Inggris. Karena, saya sudah menghadapi banyak
pengalaman belajar mengajar di kampung saya., I wanted to be a teacher because when I was in junior high school, and senior high school, there were not English teachers, so
that I faced more experience teaching learning in my village SO2 Refl. 06 23 April, 2014.”
The other students also reflected that “ first time in classroom activities I was very difficult, because lack of confidence with my classmates SO3
”. Her reflections indicated her experience during the following English learning, at the
ELESP. Here is her reflections in learning:
First time in English education study program, I had difficult to understand lecturers explanation. And also first time I had afraid to classmates because my English is not
fluently so lack of confidence with classmates, and then low English ability. For adapt with classmates during the group work, or group discussion in classroom and outside class are
same experience with Refl 6, SO2 SO4 Refl.06 24 April 2014.
My own and my friends’ reflections indicated similar experience in the
first semesters 1-3 at the English education study program.
b. After the first three semesters 4 semester onwards
In this part the researcher explain the lived experience of Papuan students after the first three semesters 4 semester onwards, at the English Education
Study Program. There are two themes: 1 our persistence to deepen our English; and 2 the positive learning behavior in English language education.
In this study the researcher discuss the first theme that has been faced by Papuan students after the first three semester 4 semester onwards, that is
persistence to deepen our English. Here is my reflection:
In my own experience after three semester 4-6 still difficult to comprehend in English. Because in classroom lecturers and my classmates they used in English so sometimes
difficult, to speak in English with friends, but I always effort and wanted to know how to learnt English well. At that time I never give up, but always keep study until after three
semester I had inreased English language SO1. Refl.07.
In my own experience in this study, sometimes “dissatisfied”, because I had to take remedial classes for the same subjects but always had bad scores. From
this experience I did not give up but was always persistent to deepen English language. The same experience was faced by the other three students. Here are
their reflections of their persistence to deepen English:
After the first three semester I had inreased in English language. Although, I had low vocabularies, grammar, but I always keep study English education diligently, I though that
without effort I had not understand SO2 Refl.07 23 April 2014.”
In my experience after three semester, I had inreased English language, and confidence, even thought were still difficult. But I had study harder and harder for improved my
English ability SO3 Refl.7 24 April 2014 .”
Student SO4 realised that he needed to keep motivating himself to deepen his English ability he studied harder. For example SO3 Refl.07 and he learnt
diligently. Here is his reflection on his learning experience:
In my experience after first semester, I had progress, in learning English even though still need study more. In my motivation to study English I wanted to be an English teacher
because I had studied harder in English education SO4 Refl.07 24 April 2014.
The second theme positive learning behavior in English language education. Learning is a process that depends on experience and leads to long-
term changes in behavior potential. Behavior potential designates the possible behavior of an individual, not actual behavior. Here are the reflections of Papuan
students ’ positive learning behavior in ELESP after the first semesters 4-6:
After the first three semester, I had positive learning behavior even though my English was still poor, for example pronunciation, grammar. I knew that I had inreased in English and
study hard against, because I know that I will be understand. That is the my positive thinking about learning English education SO1. Refl.8.
My own experience and other three students ’ are similar My Refl. Refl.
8. The three students reflected that the first three semesters were difficult but after the first semesters 4-6 they could increase their English language and had
positive behavior with classmates and can follows the lectures’s explanations.
But other four Papuan students have decided to drop their course and moved to other study program, because they did not have the persistence and positive
learning behavior.
c. The last semesters at the ELESP
