The Description of the Timorese Struggle for Freedom in the poems
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through the dictions of „I and mine‟. In this poem, Xanana presents the image of the
war vulgarly that represent the Timorese struggle ; war costs people‟s life and the lost
of the country “the sky is not minethe sea is not mine life is only gain by death”: I am at war
the sky is not mine I am at war
the sea is not mine, I am at war
and life is won only in death
in the hope of regaining my sea Xanana, 1975-1999, stanza 1, lines 2-7
Through the image of the „the sky‟, he addresses that the use of military power is not only by the war ships but also by using war planes to win the battle over
Timorese. „Sky‟ which Xanana presents is representing war planes and the „the sea‟ is the representation of war ships.
In the poem “I am at war”, Xanana captures the real condition of Timorese people during struggling against oppressor. Many Timorese lost their life for
defending their motherland. Timorese were forced to fight the war that they never wanted. The tone suggests a struggle against colonial superior military power;
Xanana and the people of Timor Leste have no chance in defending their country. However, in the last line of the poem, there is still a hope that one day the Timorese
will gain their freedom and country “in the hope of regaining my sea.” These two poems,
“My Sea of Timor” and “I am at war” are a portrayal of Suha
rto‟s military invasion of Timor Leste on 7 December 1975 under pretext of
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anti-colonialism and the struggle of the Timorese against it. The regime overthrows FRETILIN Revolutionary front of Independence of Timor Leste, government and
occupied the country over quarter-century which between approximately 100-180,000 soldiers and civilians are estimated to have been killed or starved. The descriptions in
the poem about Suharto‟s military power by Xanana above are to reveal the notion of colonizers in expanding their colony by using military power as Michael Barrat-
Brown in Said, 1994: 341 explains that in imperialism, without question that the commonest strategy in an expansion of the colony is the use of military power. The
invasion of Timor Leste by the Soeharto‟s regime actually violates Indonesian
constitution where it says that every nation has the right to be free from colonialism. The Constitution of the Republic of Indonesia of 1945
PREAMBLET Whereas Independence is the natural right of every nation, colonialism must
be abol-ished in this world because it is not in conformity with Humanity and Justice. Sindunegoro, 1991: 19
The character of Indonesia with its international solidarity to abolish
colonialism throughout the world and build nations upon democratic ideals where the rights of individual and nations based upon independence, peace and social justice is
violated. The poems “My Sea of Timor” and “I am at War” are the descriptions of
how Timor Leste‟s independence was ignored by Soeharto‟s Regime for the sake of his economic and political interests. The regime cooperated with its Western allies by
justifying that Timor Leste is a half island, poor, and underdeveloped; in other words,
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it is not a viably independent country. Barrat-Brown, Michael in Said 1994:341 mentions that imperialism is still without question a most powerful force in the
economic, political and military relations by which less economically developed land is subjected to the more economically developed.
In the poem “Maubere”, Xanana as a speaker in the poem appeals to the Timorese to struggle against the endless oppression and enslavement that have been
put upon them by the colonizers through the tone “repetition of “maubere” and
images of belly, ruts, and walls; “maubere people tear open your belly your cravings rust of neglect, of anguish, of oppression and hurl them to the wind to you
furthest brother in the secret places of the sacred land.... maubere people clench you fist hours is yours your defiance will bring down the wall of your own
enslavement.” The tone of defiance through the diction of “mauberemaubere people” used in the stanza is transmitting the message which carries defiance in uniting the
Timorese to end the long suffering of enslavement by the excessive military control. “Maubere people” or the Timorese can liberate themselves from enslavement:
Maubere People, Maubere, child of East Timor,
tear open your belly, your cravings,
ruts of neglect, of anguish, of oppression, and hurl them to the wind,
to your furthest brother, in the secret places of the sacred land,
Maubere People, clench your fists,
The hour is yours, Maubere
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And your defiance will bring down the walls of your own enslavement
long march of liberation liberate yourself
Xanana,1975-1999, stanza 1, lines 1-9, stanza 2, lines 1-5, stanza 3, lines 3 - 4
The poem “Maubere” is an illustration of how the Timorese lived in harsh
condition under colonial hegemony for a long period of time and their struggle: “ruts
of neglect, of angui sh, of oppressionthe wall of your own enslavement”. Timorese
have been living under two different colonialisms: under Portuguese rule for nearly 500 years and Indonesian military occupation for 24 years. During those times, the
Timorese were forced to abandon their culture and way of thinking because they were considered uncivilized. The title Maubere is the term used by Portuguese to
marginalize Timorese; maubere means „uneducated, inferior‟ to the colonizer, while
Indonesian Military officers referred it as „backward and lazy‟. maubere or „Other‟ is
to justify colonialism that the „other‟ is uncivilized, so they must be civilized through the civilization brought to Timor Leste by Portuguese and Indonesian
military. Then, Xanana uses the term maubere to unite Timorese or “maubere” as a
new identity of Timorese as he called it “maubere people, maubere, child of Timor.” maubere
also becomes the new identity of Timorese as a frontier. Frontier here has a dual function. Geographically, the imagined community has a certain geographical
boundaries. As a national consciousness has risen, maubere creates imaginative boundaries between people who feel themselves as an oppressed nation, poor, and
destitute by the invaders. Xanana cites the term maubere, not only as a new identity
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but also as a symbol of resistance and political tool to gain international recognition of Timor Leste. The term maubere is used to reject colonial values and hence
provides a voice to the dominated, marginalized and divided the Timorese. This is as displayed in the last three lines “the hours is your‟s maubere and your defiance will
bring down the wall of your own enslavement .” The use of the term maubere as
Timorese new identity by Xanana is a strategy for self-determination. The poem entitled
“Oh Freedom”, Xanana displays excessive oppression of colonize
rs through the images of nature; “cold mornings curtain of the skyhillsdisturbed sunrise the serene plains of the pasture drinking from the springs
calm afternoons the darkening of the waves sea.” These images represent excessive
oppression even though “oppression” is not directly mention in the poem. Further the tone Xanana uses, conditional [If] that gives lurid description of the Timorese
struggle during oppression of colonizers. Every walk of the life of the Timorese was controlled by the oppressor: “If I could onlywake up in cold morningwake up
shivering beating by the galewhich opens for the curtain of the sky and see, from the top of the hills the purple painting o
f a disturbed sunrise east of Timor” first stanza lines, 1-
8 and “if I could only in the scorching suns towards the finding myself” in second stanza lines, 1-3 and “If I could only in the calm afternoons
feel that tiredness of the sensuous nature stretching itself in its own sweat and listen to the telling of the weariness‟s within the laughter‟s of the naked barefoot
children” in third stanza lines, and “If I could only at the darkening of the waves
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walk by the sand absorbed in myself in the wet rapture of the breeze and touch the immensity of the sea in a breath of soul which let me dream the future of
Timor.” in the last stanza, lines, 1-9, Xanana uses conditional [if] is also to underlines how difficult it is for the Timorese to live their daily life normally when
everything they do was under control, from the start of the day till later in the afternoon:
Oh Freedom If I could only
in the cold mornings wake up shivering
beaten by the gale which opens for me the curtain of the sky,
and see, from the top of my hills, the purple painting of a disturbed sunrise
east of Timor If I could only
in the scorching suns towards the finding of myself
in the serene plains of the pasture, and feel the smell of animals
drinking from the springs which would murmur in the air,
legends of Timor
Xanana, 1975-1999, Stanza 1, lines 1-8, stanza 2, lines 1-8 The first and second stanzas above show the hope of the Timorese to wake up
in the morning freely without any fear. People were hoping that they wake up in the mor
ning and have enough strength “beaten by the galewhich opens for me the curtain of the sky
” to face the excessive oppression as “the disturb sunrise” and do their daily activity. There is no morning that not control. The second stanza portrays,
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maybe later in the day people are hoping to be free and enjoy doing their activities “If
I could only in the scorching suns ride in raptures towards the finding of myself in the serene plains of the pasture but ride in ruptures is not exist and in on a hope.
People just pray to their ancestors that migh t help reduce their suffering “and feel the
smell of animals drinking from the springs which would murmur in the air, legends of the Timor. Then, curtain of the sky and the disturb sunrise
” represents uncertain future of the Timorese.
If I could only in the calm afternoons
feel that tiredness of the sensuous nature
stretching itself in its own sweat and listen to the telling of the wearinesses
within the laughters of the naked barefoot children
of all Timor Xanana,1975-1999, stanza 3, lines 1-9
In the third above stanza, Xanana reveals that after hard days of working,
people are hoping to come back and see their family enjoy the afternoon, share their daily grain to
each other as a family “If I could only in the calm afternoons feel that tiredness of the sensuous nature stretching itself in its own sweat and listen to
the telling of the weariness‟s within the laughter‟s of the naked barefoot children.” Spending time with the family was only a hope, because people left their kids and
joined guerrilla in the jungle to fight for liberation of the nation. Those who did not join the guerrilla in the jungle were tightly controlled, so family time also had been
under control.
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In the l ast stanza of “Oh Freedom” below is still the portrayal of the
harshness of the life of the Timorese. The images still carried the helplessness of the Timorese cannot enjoy their life and the tone is still expresses the voice of Xanana
insistence of the Timorese freedom. From the first stanza to the last Xanana address directly to colonizers “if” the Timorese might have their freedom: “the darkening of
the waves... let me dream the future of the island of Timor”. There was no time for the Timorese to have normal daily life that same as the colonizer. Family gathering is
just an “if” and so is their future of the country: If I could only
at the darkening of the waves walk by the sand
absorbed in myself in the wet rapture of the breeze
and touch the immensity of the sea in a breath of soul
which let me dream the future of the island of Timor
xanana, 1975-1999, Stanza 4, lines 1-9
Last stanza is a portrayal of hope of the Timorese to be free from the occupation, so that peop
le can enjoy their life “If I could only at the darkening of the waves walk by the sand absorbed in myself in the wet rapture of the breeze and
touch the immensity of the sea in a breath of soul which let me dream the future.” The future is only a hope and the hope is in the air; Timorese must struggle to realize
the “hope” into a freedom which is still in the hand of the colonizer. “Oh Freedom” i
s a portrayal of Suharto‟s military oppression in every walk of the life of the Timorese.
The regime implements a strategy known as „divide and rule‟ by using
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village guidance officer called a Babinsa Bintara Pembina Desa as the „eyes and
ears‟ of the occupation forces and collecting intelligence on a regular basis. This military presented in every village all over the country to make sure that the Timorese
followed every rule that had been put upon them. In the poem
“Grandfather Crocodile”, Xanana depicts Crocodile becomes the central figure in the poem.
The tone through the diction of „crocodile‟ is to emphasize that Crocodile in Timorese culture considered as sacred and believed as the ancestor
of the Timorese. Through this poem, Xanana portrays the Timorese culture in order to show the colonizers that Timorese are there to defend their culture as well as their
way of life. In this poem, he shows the colonizer about their origin “from the depths
of the ocean and his lumpy hide was transformed into a mountain range where people were born and where people died,” how they live their life and remind the
colonizer that the Timorese are determined with their own destiny “ a crocodile in
search of a destinyGrandfather crocodile -the legend says and who am I to disbelieve that he is Timor” the Timorese culture in the eyes of colonizer is
primitive and uncivilized, so it must be modernized. Edward Said ‟s Orientalism
1994: xii- xiii identifies superiority of Western culture and the rest is “Other”, which
means imperialism culture is the most effective method to justify colonialism. Overall, “Grandfather Crocodile” is used to strive against arrogance colonial culture:
From the depths of the ocean a crocodile in search of a destiny
spied the pool of light, and there he surfaced
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Then wearily, he stretched himself out
in time and his lumpy hide was transformed
into a mountain range where people were born
and where people died Grandfather crocodile
- the legend says and who am I to disbelieve
that he is Timor
Xanana, 1975-1999, stanza 1, lines 1-3, stanza 2, lines 1-7, stanza 3, lines 1- 4
In this poem, Xanana places the Timorese culture at the centre; “cultural
strategy” is a powerful tool to inspire revolution against colonialism. The notion of cultural strategy by Xanana is to undermine colonial cultural hegemony and its
structure that has been put upon Timorese and other oppressed nations and reemphasize national culture so-
callled as “inferior” to colonizers as an ideal culture that is distinct from colonizers and must be proud of. Cultural strategy is also to
eliminate the inferiority of colonized people towards colonizers and build consciousness of being equal to colonizers in every walk of life. Furthermore, to
achieve national liberation for the Timorese and other oppressed nation is to eliminate formal structure of “civilization mission” by colonizers. Senghor in O. R. Dathorne
1975:230-232 puts his hatred in his poem “Nuit de sine” against French government
policy, so- called as „civilizing mission‟, to assimilate Africans into the French culture
and way of living by giving them education, dealing specifically with French history and tradition, and all but ignoring the origins and culture of the African people.
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The portrayal of Portuguese rule and Suharto‟s military occupation in Timor Leste in Xanana‟s poems shows that new civilization that colonizers claimed as new
enlightenment for the Timorese has brought down the existence of the Timorese civil liberty. The Timorese became slave in their own country; they lost their culture, way
life, and many lives for civilisation that had never been their choice. However, the Timorese would always defend their cultural existence because it has been their way
of life for long period of time. Through his poems, Xanana portrays freedom is the rights of every individual or a nation and he raises the consciousness of his fellow
Timorese to struggle for their freedom and the country. As in his poem “Maubere” stanza 3, line1-
4, “Maubere People, confront and face yourself in the long march of liberationLiberate yourself”, Xanana believes that in order to achieve total
liberation, the Timorese must gain political, social and cultural freedom.
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