33 more. Veronika makes a confession to a nurse that works in the mental asylum
about her true motives and feelings. “When I took the pills, I wanted to kill someone I hated. I didn’t know that
other Veronikas existed inside me, Veronikas that I could love. What makes a person hate themselves? Cowardice, perhaps. Or the eternal fear of being
wrong, of not doing what others expect. A few moments ago I was happy, I forgot I was under sentence of death; then, when I remembered the situation
I’m in, I felt frightened.” p. 66.
Veronika’s conversation with the nurse makes Veronika feels fear. Veronika is about to become unable to control the fear, but she motivates herself based on
her belief that she is mature enough to make the best choice for herself. Through Dr. Igor’s perception of Veronika, Veronika’s conversation with
the nurse, and Veronika’s thought, we can say that she is a mature woman. Veronika is already twenty four years old. Thus, she is mature enough to make a
decision for herself. Veronika is able to accept her old way of being, her persona, and Veronika is willing to move on. Veronika can control her feelings well.
4.1.2.2. Brave
Veronika becomes a brave woman as she lives in the mental asylum. Because all the member of the fraternity insults her, Veronika feels shame, rage,
and a desire to murder all of the members of the fraternity. Veronika allows herself to follow her feelings and desire. Veronika’s knowledge of the freedom in
the mental asylum makes her accepts her desire. Veronika slaps the oldest man of the fraternity pp. 42-45.
Veronika’s bravery can also be seen when she decides to escape the mental asylum with Eduard. Veronika is not afraid of the outside world, but is willing to
34 realize her dreams with Eduard. Not only being unafraid of the outside world,
Veronika is not afraid of her heart problems. In conclusion, Veronika is a kind of person who is idealistic, sluggish,
introvert, insecure, mature, brave, pretty, and attractive. Veronika keeps her daily routines perfectly the same day by day. She thinks that taking an overdose of
sleeping pills is the best way of ending her life since it is romantic and not disfiguring her appearance in any way. Veronika is already twenty four years old.
Thus, she is mature enough to make a decision for herself. Veronika is able to accept her old way of being, her persona, and willing to move on. Veronika can
control her feelings well. Veronika decides to keep the magazine although she does not like it. Paulo directly gives his comments about Veronika who is passive
by nature. Veronika is an introvert who decides to make no emotional contact with other people. Veronika feels loneliness because of her introvert personality.
Veronika feels complete powerless as she can do nothing to help the world. Veronika hates and disregard herself. Veronika is a young woman with green eyes
and brown hair who is pretty, and attractive. Based on the analysis, it is obvious that before coming to the mental asylum Veronika is sort of a person who wants
nothing more from her current life. She decides to maintain his daily routines. Veronika lacks the desire or the will to prolong her life. Thus, she commits
suicide. However, Veronika’s personality improves as she lives in the mental asylum. Veronika becomes more mature and her dreams in life arise. Her desires
provide Veronika the wide opportunity to move on.
