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When Kawashima shouts at her, she gets panic. This can be seen in the quotation below:
‘Idiot’ he shouted, staring bug-eyed at the can he was holding and feeling as if his temples had burst into flame. ‘Watch what you’re doing’
Chiaki’s heart gave a hard thump and began to flutter. A pale mist blurred her field of vision. She’d been trying to arouse him but had only succeeded
in making him angry. It was all her fault, and she found herself unable to fight off the eddying panic. 89
She gets in rage if she feels she is rejected. If she is in rage, she always thinks that something terrible would happen. She could not control herself when
she is angry. Something terrible always happens when I get like this, she thought. And
when it’s all over I’ll feel so bad I’ll want to die. I hate it. I hate it, but I never have the power to stop it, so it must be something I really need. This
rage that makes me want to destroy everything I see – all the people and things, and myself too, burn everything down to the ground. I must need it.
156 The analysis above shows that Sanada Chiaki is sensitive. Sanada
becomesvery angry if something does not go like she wants. This can be seen from the Sanada Chiaki’s actions and thoughts.
b. Aggressive
Sanada Chiaki is an aggressive person. She always gets very excited when she meets the man whom she thinks might be the one she has been looking for.
Chiaki was ecstatic. So it really was him. The one who’d grabbed her from behind and whispered in her ear and made her realise how angry and
scared she was, was the same one who always saw to it that she got to a hospital. It’s really him, she thought. I’ve finally met the mystery man.
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PLAGIAT MERUPAKAN TINDAKAN TIDAK TERPUJI PLAGIAT MERUPAKAN TINDAKAN TIDAK TERPUJI
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Sanada Chiaki thinks that Kawashima might be the mysterious man that she has been looking for. She feels very happy when Kawashima told her that he
is going to take her to the hospital. Along the way from the hotel to the hospital and her apartment, she becomes very spoiled with Kawashima. Sanada acts as a
person who is falling in love and always wants to be around Kawashima. Chiaki hadn’t wanted to let go of the man’s arm in the lobby, but she
guessed he wouldn’t care to be seen cuddling with her in front of a lot of people.
…. It was warm inside the taxi, but she snuggled up to him anyway, twisting
her upper body to bury her face in his chest. ….
Not wanting to wait a single extra second to feel his arm around her shoulder, supporting her, Chiaki started towards the man, dragging her
numb, anaesthetized right leg. 118-128
Since Sanada was a child, Sanada Chiaki has shown that she is an aggressive person. She teases the men whom she likes. As a girl, her aggressive
character makes her have many boyfriends in her teenage. When she was eighteen, she had had about twenty boyfriends. 132
In the elementary school that time, alone in the equipment room with the young gym teacher. I lifted my skirt and took his hand and tried to slide it
inside my underwear. I thought that was what grown-up men liked, and I wanted to make him happy. 156
Based on the quotation above, it can be concluded that Sanada Chiaki is an
aggressive person. This can be seen from the way she acts and her experience.
c. Suffering from a Psychological Disorder
