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‘my mother, she put ammonia, on my hand, and one time she said, do you want a tattoo, and she sharpened this pencil, a hard one, 4H or 5H, really
sharp, and she stabbed my arms, and legs with it, and she hit me, with a milk bottle, and tied up my ears, and fingers, with string, she didn’t care,
she’d prise open my eyelids, with her fingers, and bring the tip, of a burning cigarette, or a needle, right up to my eye, it didn’t bother her at all,
so now, do you understand, the secret?’ 173
And after that, Kawashima‘s teacher put him to a rehabilitation place for abused children called Home. It can be seen from the page 13: ‘Not long after
that, a primary-school teacher of mine got me placed in a home for abused kids, and that’s when I started drawing.’
All the quotations above show that Kawashima suffers from a psychological disorder, called pavor nocturnus or the night terrors. Because of his
psychological disorder, he has the desire to stab his own baby.
2. The Characterization of Sanada Chiaki
a. Sensitive
Sanada Chiaki is a sensitive person. She always feels panic and angry if the people around her suddenly change their attitude. When that happens, she
would be confused and blame herself and sometimes she would be in rage. Sanada would choose to be alone and calm herself down.
‘Just shut up and take care of it, bitch’ he shouted and slammed the receiver down as if he meant to break it. Chiaki stood there thunderstruck,
petrified by the instantaneous transformation from leering grin to violent, red-faced rage.
…. Not seeing him anywhere, she began to breathe again and ploughed ahead
in search of a restroom. She wanted to be alone, somewhere her pounding heart would have a chance to settle down. 79-80
PLAGIAT MERUPAKAN TINDAKAN TIDAK TERPUJI PLAGIAT MERUPAKAN TINDAKAN TIDAK TERPUJI
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When Kawashima shouts at her, she gets panic. This can be seen in the quotation below:
‘Idiot’ he shouted, staring bug-eyed at the can he was holding and feeling as if his temples had burst into flame. ‘Watch what you’re doing’
Chiaki’s heart gave a hard thump and began to flutter. A pale mist blurred her field of vision. She’d been trying to arouse him but had only succeeded
in making him angry. It was all her fault, and she found herself unable to fight off the eddying panic. 89
She gets in rage if she feels she is rejected. If she is in rage, she always thinks that something terrible would happen. She could not control herself when
she is angry. Something terrible always happens when I get like this, she thought. And
when it’s all over I’ll feel so bad I’ll want to die. I hate it. I hate it, but I never have the power to stop it, so it must be something I really need. This
rage that makes me want to destroy everything I see – all the people and things, and myself too, burn everything down to the ground. I must need it.
156 The analysis above shows that Sanada Chiaki is sensitive. Sanada
becomesvery angry if something does not go like she wants. This can be seen from the Sanada Chiaki’s actions and thoughts.
b. Aggressive
