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impossible if Helen thinks she could change the real character of Arthur to be more respectable.
After several days, Helen’s aunt held a party in her house and all gentlemen were invited, she met Arthur again that time but some diffrent condition that she
also got quarrel with Arthur, at the first Helen was enjoyed her time painted what she likes in the drawing-room and there Arthur came in and saw what Helen had
with her painting, but then Arthur open up Helen’s book which was full of unfinished painting, and it displeased Helen so Helen tried to took it away from
Arthur and throw it in the fire place. However, this made Arthur shocked of Helen’s behavior, after what Helen did Arthur it took days for Arthur talk with
Helen again, Arthur confess that he likes Helen and he wanted that Helen could changed him to be better man. Hence, Helen’s aunt knew that Arthur propose
Helen and Helen’s aunt somehow cannot accept this but at last Helen’s aunt cannot do anything to stop her, and Helen’s aunt allowed her to married with
Arthur. ‘’I am surprised. If it is true that you told him you could not accept his
offer without our consent —
It is true, interrupted I. Then how could you permit
— I couldnt help it, aunt, I cried bursting into tears. They were not
altogether the tears of sorrow, or of fear for her displeasure, but rather the outbreak of the general tumultuous excitement of my feelings. But my
good aunt was touched at my agitation. In a softer tone, she repeated her
recommendation to retire’’ 160 From the conversation above shows that Helen has the reason why she accept
Arthur’s offer without any of her aunt consent, Helen thinks that her aunt would not agree with her, even thought Helen would love Arthur so much than what
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Helen’s aunt know. However, Helen still thinks that every decision was in her hand, and no one can stop it.
C. The Reason Rebelation of Helen to Her Will
The first Matrimonial of Helen and Arthur, has went well but soon was complained to Helen that he felt not really satishfy with Helen, Arthur thinks that
Helen was more pay attention to her God, yet Arthur expects Helen would pay attention to him more. However, Helen thinks that it is one wrong thing of Arthur
mindset, so Helen said ‘’I will give my whole heart and soul to my Maker if I can, I answered,
and not one atom more of it to you than He allows. What are you, sir, that you should set yourself up as a god, and presume to dispute possession of
my heart with Him to whom I owe all I have and all I am, every blessing I ever did or ever can enjoy
—‘’ 193 The statement that Helen said to Arthur was represented that she cannot love
Arthur more than Her God, for Helen to love the Maker was more important than loving Arthur first, Helen’s reason to rebel was for her rights to love the Maker
more, and Helen also expects to Arthur that he could loves the maker first so his love to Helen could be more pure.
‘’you dont love me half as much as I do you; and yet, if you loved me far less than you do, I would not complain, provided you loved your Maker
more. I should rejoice to see you at any time, so deeply absorbed in your devotions that you had not a single thought to spare for me. But, indeed, I
should lose nothing by the change, for the more you loved your God the more deep and pure and true would be your love to me.
’’194
Helen has known something diffrent in Arthur that his activity was dissimilar with Helen. However, Arthur was enjoyed telling the story to Helen about his
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former lovers, he thinks that it was fun to make Helen jealous by this way. Hence, this has made Helen agitated, Helen felt even mad when Arthur told his former
lover with lady F, and this made Helen regret that she had ever choose got married with Arthur. Neverthless, Arthur did not felt any mistake that he had done to
Helen, Arthur was laughing at Helen and he said he did not trust that Helen would hate him.
‘’If you had told me these things before, Arthur, I never should have given you the chance.
Wouldnt you, my darling Most certainly not
He laughed incredulously. I wish I could convince you of it now cried I, starting up from beside
him; and for the first time in my life, and I hope the last, I wished I had not married him.
Helen, said he, more gravely, do you know that if I believed you now, I should be very angry?
—but thank Heaven I dont.’’ 198-199 Helen tried to rebel Arthur because she thinks that what Arthur did to her is
displeaseful, Helen liberation has the reason that Arthur should learn from his mistakes, and Helen thinks that her heart was not his slave
‘’ I was determined to shew him that my heart was not his slave, and I could live without him if I chose;’’199
After the quarrel Helen had with her husband, when the morning she tried to
make everything better, in fact Helen heard that her husband would leave to London, so Helen asked her husband what aim he had on London. However,
Helen’s husband answered that he felt Helen did not love her, but Helen clarified it to her husband that Helen would if he did not mistreated Helen’s feeling, so he
asked forgiveness to Helen and Helen forgive him, so he said he would go to Londo if Helen go with him as well.
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After all what Helen had with her husband, Helen was gave birth of one and only son that meant so much for Helen. However, Helen had made promised that
she will never left her little Arthur in danger, and she would do everything for her own son. Neverthless, it was diffrent with Arthur impression at firt, Arthur thinks
that he could not love his own son, but by the time Arthur could gave the love to his son
‘’He has won his fathers heart at last; and now my constant terror is, lest he should be ruined by that fathers thoughtless indulgence.
’’232 Helen’s fear that her son would follow the path as her husband did all these time,
Arthur was an indulgence, selfish man, and Helen afraid if she shoud spoil her own child.
Helen has been through many quarrels with Arthur, most of time Arthur has left Helen in a very long term business, everytime Helen tried to send the letter
and she thought Arthur would answer it very soon but Arthur replied the letters in basic words, and he kept saying promises that he would back home very soon.
Hence, Helen tried not to wait Arthur presence, but when Arthur back home and Arthur has invited all his friends to his house on October for hunting. However,
this was became an unexpectable moment for Helen, on 9th October Helen heard from Rachel when she dressed Helen as usual and Rachel said that if she was the
master, Rachel would not invite Lady Louborough in this place. Hence, Rachel
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was sad to know that Helen should have such a husband like Arthur, Helen has heard from Mr.Hargrave also, a respectable man that Helen consider,
Mr.Hargrave told Helen there was something wrong with Arthur while Arthur was in London. In the evening, Helen would gladly looked for her husband so she
went out to infront of her house, but sadly she knewe there was Arthur and Lady Louborough having affair.
But tell me, dont you love her still —a little? said she placing her hand on
his arm and looking earnestly in his face —for I could see them plainly, the
moon shining full upon them from between the branches of the tree that sheltered me.
Not one bit, by all thats sacred he replied, kissing her glowing
cheek’’291 Helen felt it was wrong she should married Arthur before, and it was very
dissapoinment that she should trusted Arthur that much. However, after what Helen noticed she asked to leave the house and take little Arthur with her.
‘’ Only this, returned I: will you let me take our child and what remains of my fortune, and go?
Go where? Anywhere, where he will be safe from your contaminating influence, and
I shall be delivered from your presence
—and you from mine. No
—by Jove I wont’’294 Arthur has not let Helen to went out from the house, so all what Helen could only
did was stayed still in the mansion to take care her only son, and only served Arthur and no more. Neverthless, Helen reason to stay still was trying to save her
only son, and she would accept Arthur whenever he got bored of Helen and
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tortured her, sometimes Arthur was too drunk and mocked Helen with his other friends.
‘’When he is under the exciting influence of these excesses, he sometimes fires up and attempts to play the brute; and then I take little pains to
suppressmy scorn and disgust: when he is under the depressing influence of the after consequences, he bemoans his sufferings and his errors, and
charges them both upon me; he knows such indulgence injures his health, and does him more harm than good; but he says I drive him to it by my
unnatural, unwomanly conduct; it will be the ruin of him in the end, but it is all my fault;
—and then, I am roused to defend myself—sometimes, with bitter recrimination.’’309
Helen did her recrimination was because she felt injustice for what her husband
done to her, Helen was sacrifice everything for Arthur but all what he did to Helen was something unpleasant, afterall Helen has been felt that Arthur always put the
blame to her, so in return Helen must fought back to Arthur. On February 10
th
, Helen tried everything back like before, she tried to be kind to Arthur, to love him fondly, because she felt that Arthur was misserably ill
because his own indulgence, hence it did not worked out, Arthur did the reverse. However, when Arthur and Helen were sitting in the same table and Arthur was
opened the letter from Lady Louborough, he asked Helen to take lesson from Lady Louboroug affection letter that belongs to Arthur. Hence, Helen saw her
only son delighted playing with Arthur’s hand and his ruby ring on his finger. Helen could not bare it, and she took her son away from him to other room, she
has reason because she did not want her son to act like her husband, but instead her son cried wanted to be her husband that straightly broke her heart.
‘’ I released him from my arms, and never were more bitter tears than those that now concealed him from my blinded, burning eyes. Hearing his
cries, the father came to the room. I instantly turned away lest he should
