Emotionally Unstable The Characteristics of Charlie

38 Charlie goes to his first high school football game alone. He has no companion and does not know why he comes to the game. Instead of enjoying the game, he observes the people there. He watches who are in love, who hang around and who really watch the game. Charlie observes the people and finds Nothing. He watches Nothing and notices that he really watches the game. Charlie sees Nothing is interested in the game that he yells and screams. Charlie does not come to the game to enjoy the game but to observe people. Another evidence can be seen in the statement below. I was in the shopping mall because thats where I go lately. For the last couple of weeks, Ive been going there every day, trying to figure out why people go there. Its kind of a personal project. There was this one little boy. He might have been four years old. Im not sure. He was crying really hard, and he kept screaming for his mom. He must have been lost. Then, I saw this older kid, who was maybe seventeen. I think he went to a different school because I had never seen him before. Anyway, this older kid, who was really tough-looking with a leather jacket and long hair and everything, went up to the little boy and asked him what his name was. The little boy answered and stopped crying. I guess the mom had been searching for the little boy for a long time because she came running up to the information desk, and when she saw the little boy, she started crying p. 143. Charlie is in a shopping mall to observe people. He does not go there to have fun or buy something he needs. In the shopping mall he finds a lost boy. The little boy is desperate and does not stop crying. However, instead of helping the little boy and calming him down, Charlie just keeps observing to know what happen next. Charlie does not help the little boy to meet his mother. Charlie observes the little boy until finally an older kid takes him to the information desk and finds his mom. While the thing happens, Charlie observes the expression of the little boy, the older kid as well as the mom. 39 Charlie is a wallflower who does not participate in life. He prefers to just stand at the back and see people doing their things. At a school dances, Charlie tells Bill that he does not join the dance because he does not know how to dance. He prefers to lean against a wall and observe people. At the school dances, I sit in the background, and I tap my toe, and I wonder how many couples will dance to their song. In the hallways, I see the girls wearing the guys jackets, and I think about the idea of property. And I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are pp. 23-24. When observing people in a situation, he asks question to himself about how people act, how they feel and why they do it in that situation. He also often questions whether people are as happy as they seem. In his being of a wallflower, Charlie is an insecure person. He has lack of confidence about himself. His lack of confidence overcomes him to see his own ability even though other people can see it. Then, Bill took this really long pause, and his voice sounded like my dad when he wants to have a big talk. Charlie, he said. Do you know why I gave you all that extra work? I shook my head no. That look on his face. It made me quiet. Charlie, do you know how smart you are? I just shook my head no again. He was talking for real. It was strange. Charlie, youre one of the most gifted people Ive ever known. And I dont mean in terms of my other students. I mean in terms of anyone Ive ever met. Thats why I gave you the extra work. I was wondering if you were aware of that? I guess so. I dont know. I felt really strange. I didnt know where this was coming from. I just wrote some essays p. 181. Charlie is actually an intelligent boy. His ability in writing and reading is not the same as the average kid on his age. Bill, Charlie’s English Advanced teacher, admits Charlie’s ability. Charlie is always given extra novel to read and to write an essay about it. Bill wants Charlie to know how gifted he is. However, Charlie’s