74 Lara feels surprised with Howard’s idea; she thinks that it was a
great idea that she has to fulfill. Then she moves to Delaware, one country in Chicago to find an old hotel which she can buy and remodel it. Finally,
she finds the hotel. She looks around at the hotel, she watches, thinks and says that she has to buy it; she will remodel and makes it better than
before. Lara got in the elevator. It was slowly and antiquated. I’ll have it
redone , Lara thought. And I’ll put a mural inside. In her mind she
was already beginning to decorate the hotel. TSSD: 77 Lara is really impressed with the hotel and she wants to buy it. She
feels that she wants it more than anything. He grinned at her,’ you really going to buy this joint’
‘Yes’, Lara said. I’m really going to buy this joint. TSSD: 77 Diamond was asking too much for the hotel, but she wanted it. She
wanted it more than anything she had ever wanted in her life. TSSD: 80
2. Inferiority Feeling and Compensation
Acknowledging that all of us have the feeling of inferiority at some points in our lives could serve as a basis for mutual help and cooperation
to overcome problems in life. Adler in Ryckman, 1985: 96- 97 notes that an individual with defective organs typically tries to compensate for their
weaknesses by intensive training. The feeling of inferiority or a sense of incompleteness is the great driving force mankind. In other words, man is
pushed by the need to overcome his inferiority and pulled by the desire to be superior. Hall and Lindzey, 1981: 24
75 Actually, Lara has a high of self confidence. She never cares about
her life with full of problems and the feeling of hates from her father. She also realizes that she grows up without love from her father even her
mother. But this condition makes her becomes a brave girl but rather cold to other people. It seems that Lara grows as an individual personality who
cannot love and care to the others. Time goes by, her self confidence decreases because of the new situation that she faces in her new school.
Here, she faces the fact that almost all of her friends have mothers and fathers who gave those presents and birthday parties. Lara feels so sad and
inferior when she realizes that she has no one who cares about her. Lara got a glimpse of a different world, a world where children had
mothers and fathers who gave them presents and birthday parties and loved them and held them……Lara began to realize how much
was missing in her life. It only made her feel lonelier. TSSD: 29 The second inferiority feeling that appears in her personality is
when she nearly fails in making a building in Chicago, she feels that her dream to make her father proud of her will not become true.
The following week, the workmen still had not appeared. She went into Hallifax again to see Steele.
Lara felt the first stirrings of panic. This is very important, Lara insisted. ‘He’s putting up a building for me. It has to be finished in
three weeks. TSSD; 64 Finally, after many feelings fight in Lara’s personality because of
her first building, now the dreams become true, the building is finally built. She is helped by all of the men who ever stay in boarding house.
They think that Lara should get the best for everything.
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3. Striving for Superiority
