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Chick decides to end his life because he cannot hold his problems anymore. He decides to go home to Pepperville Beach, in which he grows up. He is very confused
before doing his action. He moves around his apartment. He walks in circles before deciding to go. Finally, he takes his gun and wants to end his life using his gun 11.
This conflict is an avoidance-avoidance conflict. The conflict has only unattractive goals, ending his life or staying alive. The two choices will not give any
advantages for him. If he chooses to end his life, he will die and will not meet. If he does not end his life, he will face his problems that he feels he cannot hold that
anymore. He feels that he does not have any better choice. Every choice cannot bring his happiness back.
d. Chick’s Mother’s Request
After meeting his mother in his old house, Chick still feels awkward. He is still confused why his dead mother is there. He still cannot believe that he meets his
mother. His mother asks him to stay with her because he wants him to spend a day with him. However, he cannot answer quickly to his mother request. He cannot give a
good answer to his mother. He feels confused because he thinks that it is impossible to stay with a dead person. Hence, he says to his mother that it is impossible. His
mother does not give reaction to Chick’s statement. Instead of giving reaction, she scoops eggs from a pan and asks him to eat 55-56.
The conflict Chick has above is an approach-avoidance conflict. The goal of this conflict is staying with his mother. This goal has both attractive and unattractive
qualities. On one hand, if he follows his mother’s request, his mother will feel happy.
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On the other hand, Chick thinks that it is impossible to stay and spend a day with his mother. If he cannot fulfill his mother request’s, she will feel regret. In that case,
Chick wants to make his mother feel happy. However, he is still confused in deciding it.
e. Chick’s Parent’s Divorce
After the divorce of his parents, Chick feels sad. He wants to cry but he cannot. He thinks he is the only man in that house that may not cry. He actually wants to cry
but he remembers his father’s saying that as a man he should not cry. He has to be strong. He tries to behave that his father will be back. He behaves like that so that he
will not cry because of remembering his father. Therefore, he does not cry at all, but he lies to himself and other people.
I remember wanting to cry myself, but it had already dawned on me that there were now three of us, not four, and I was the only male. Even at
eleven, I felt an obligation to manhood. Besides, my father used to tell me to “buck up” whenever I cried, Buck
up, kid buck up.” And, like all children whose parents split, I was trying to behave in a way that would bring the missing one back. So no tears,
Chick. Not for you 57-58.
The type of conflict that Chick faces is approach-avoidance conflict. The goal of this conflict is no crying. The goal has both attractive and unattractive qualitiess for
him. The attractive quality is that he does not cry and lets people think that he is fine after his parents’ divorce. The unattractive goal is that he cries and lets people know
that he is in a deep sorrow. The worse thing if he cries is he will break his father’s saying for him that he should not cry.
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f. Chick’s Decision about His Father’s Request
