Having a Normal Life

prostitute and tied up to her. Not so long after, he is expelled from school. He has a gloomy life as the result of the relationship. About a year later I heard a rumor that a handsome policeman in a section of Asakusa was quite the gay blade among many nurses and widows. Several years later Koga was at Okuyama in Asakusa and happened to meet a man dressed in a wadded garment made of taffeta, his face sinister, his cheeks hollow. They said that was the miserable end of Adachi, who was being kept by a female acrobat performing in a cheap Okuyama tent show 100-101. Kanai learns many things from his surroundings. He is wise enough to take lessons from others’ experiences. Bryan states in chapter 2 that there are eight steps of goal achievement theory; defining the goal, visualizing, writing the goals down, to believe it will happen, gaining the knowledge, working out a plan, taking the first step, and to keep going. Kanai’s expectation to get permission to study abroad in Germany is the way he defines the goal of his life. A person has to start with defining goal as precisely as possible. He studies hard and puts aside his curiosity as a young man in exploring sexual life. Kanai also has a strong belief that he will get the scholarship. It is another way to manage actions of pursuing goals, to believe it will happen. A person needs to believe that he is worthy of the goal. Otherwise, he admits defeat. Since my class standing when I graduated was good, it was rumored I might be permitted to study abroad at government expense. However, since it was far from being settled, my father was worried. I wasn’t, so lying on my bed in my four-and-a-half mat room in our official residence at Kosuge, I read my books 120. Another step that Kanai does is gaining the knowledge. It is no doubt that Kanai is willing to diligently study in order to achieve his goal. He likes to read a lot, and it becomes his nature to read anything that is interesting to him. Taking the first step and keep going are other ways Kanai works out. He never gives up on his study and in fact, he enjoys studying. He knows exactly what he wants in life and does the steps required to get his goal. As a final point, Kanai’s goal to study abroad is achieved.

4.2.2 On His Social Relationship

Smith divides abnormal sexuality into thirteen types, which are homosexuality, bisexuality, transvestism and transsexualism, prostitution, fetishism, nonconsent or assault sexuality, voyeurism, exhibitionism, sadism, masochism, incest, pedophilia, and raping 138-142. Kanai’s school has its own dormitory. Kanai says “It was there that I first heard about sodomy” 58. He finds out that his classmate, Kagenokoji is the object of those students who cannot have girls to love. This abnormal sexuality they suffer is homosexuality. Some of the dormitory students are trapped in their life condition that makes them attracted to others within the same gender. One of the students also looks upon Kanai as the object. He starts to offer Kanai some refreshment and some chats. But then he becomes more intimate and scares Kanai. From the beginning, though, I felt his kindness was a little too tenacious, so I didn’t like it, yet fearing to be impolite to a senior, I merely tolerated our association. Before long he was grabbing my hand. He even pressed his cheek against mine. It was annoying, unbearable. I had no genius as an Urning, as a sodomite 58.