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B32. It made her listen more attentively in listening sections B37. She also often felt nervous when studying at school B33. During the preparation she was
actually given many tips to help her to work on listening on the D-day B38; B39. However, on the D-day, all those tips did not work B43. She felt panic at
first but tried to calm herself down then B44-B47. On the D-day of the 2015 English National Examination, Baez cheated by
asking her friend the answers of some numbers B50. Baez had already decided to cheat long before the D-day came B48. Not only asking answers, Baez also
gave her answers to other friends B54-B57. Baez also made use of the examination questions leaked in Google Drive one-day before the National
Examination B62-B67. She only downloaded one of a couple packages, though B65. She only downloaded one because she did not want to be suspected. B66
She was afraid, if she was 100 right, people would notice her cheating B66. Before the 2015 National Examination results were announced, Baez felt down
and resigned B68. It was more or less one month B69. When the results came out, Baez felt happy, glad, sad, and disappointed at the same time B71-B73.
Baez‟s lived experience on the 2015 National Examination, especially on English subject, showed that she was dependent to others or other factors enough
when preparing for the examination B74- B78. Baez‟s motivation was much
affected by, especially, teachers B74- B77. Baez‟s lived experience also showed
that Baez was actually not interested in English B79. Baez‟s dependency and disinterest brought low motivation to her B76.
Other than that, Baez was also not intensely in touch with listening since she was in Junior High School B79-B82. It made her face many difficulties during
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the 2015 English National Examination preparation B30; B31 and the difficulties she had made her feel not confident B32. Her inconfidence made her
study less enthusiastically and be passive in class B76. It was also the factor which made her cheating. However, contradictorily, her being not confidence also
made her pay more attention in class and also prepared harder for the National Examination B37. Other than lack of confidence, Baez‟s difficulties also made
Baez felt nervous when she studied in class and when she faced the 2015 English National Examination B33.
For Baez, friends‟ acceptance was important. This was why Baez would not do things which were not acceptable in friendship circle, even though if that was
what she needed to improve her English B9; B89-B91. For Baez, a test is a tool to check students‟ understanding on what has been
learnt B94. Thus, when she cheated she felt the 2015 National Examination had already lost its function B93.
3. Sting’s Textural-Structural Description Story and Interpretation
During the preparation of the 2015 English National Examination, other than studying in school in class and in additional course, Sting also studied in a study
group he created with his friends S1-S9. At school or in the study group, Sting and his friends mostly studied the National Examination question samples S2;
S8. Mostly, Sting felt calm during the preparation for the 2015 National
Examination S10. However, he sometimes felt a little strained. It was especially when the
National Examination was still used to determine students‟ graduation S11. When it was no longer used to determine students‟ graduation, Sting‟s
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energy was moved to the School Examination S13. He felt tired because he used most of his time to prepare for the School Examination S13. After the School
Examination, Sting felt relaxed S12. Sting found difficulties in dealing with listening. One of his difficulties was to
understand British English S15. Sting felt strained the first time he realized this weakness of his S17. Indeed, he was exposed to American English more than
British English in and outside school S18; S19. Sting was also not used to fast- spoken text S21. Sting thus found difficulties in understanding listening texts
because they were spoken fast S21. In order to solve his problems, Sting relied on the preparation given by the school S21; S22. A couple of days before the D-
day of the 2015 English National Examination which was computer-based, Sting heard there was an error in the listening section in the paper-based examination in
his town S23. Sting felt anxious hearing this, afraid that similar error would also happen in the computer-based examination S24. Gladly, on the D-day it did not
happen S29. Even though Sting had difficulties in listening and experienced anxiety, Sting did not cheat S31.
Sting‟s school had prepared him for the computer-based examination. Sting was used to it when he worked on the 2015 National Examination S35.
However, when firstly hearing that his school would implement computer-based examination, Sting felt nervous S36. It was because he thought the time
management would be stricter than paper-based examination S37. From Sting‟s lived experience, I saw Sting‟s strong motivation to graduate S8;
S11; S12; S12; S13; S22. This made him more nervous in facing the National Examination when it was still used to determine students‟ graduation S11. When
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the National Examination was no longer used to det ermine students‟ graduation,
when School Examination was, Sting put all his energy for School Examination S13. He felt tired in preparing himself for School Examination. This was why
when School Examination was over he felt relieved S12. He felt relaxed when preparing for the National Examination afterwards because it was no longer used
to determine graduation. It became just formality. Even though graduating is important, for Sting it was also important to be
autonomous S30; S37; S38; S39. However, his autonomy was not something in conflict with authority School or state. This was why Sting had no complaints
when the school gave him tasks or when there was policy changing regarding the National Examination. Sting‟s autonomy could be seen when he did everything
given to him by himself S30. He sometimes asked his friends or the teachers, but even when he did not, he would still be fine S38; S39. Sting also did not cheat
even though he had difficulties and he knew his friends did S30. Sting‟s autonomy could also be seen when he was anxious when imagining he would not
have strong control on time management on the d-day of the National Examination S37.
It was also important for Sting to have full control as a student S24; S40. He did not want wider control than that and less control than that. This was why Sting
was worried when he heard there was an error S24. The mistake he might make because of the error meant he had to deal with wider scope than himself as a
student. Sting also did not like to protest or criticize for the same reason. PLAGIAT MERUPAKAN TINDAKAN TIDAK TERPUJI
