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apparently helped Dylan a lot when he worked on the English National Examination D38.
For Dylan, it was also important to be independent. This was why Dylan came out with many initiatives during the preparation and on the d-day of the National
Examination D3; D6; D36; D37; D39. This was also why Dylan‟s motivation was still stable even though he was taught by different types of teachers D3; D6;
D11; D12; D13; D40. Dylan was also in the habit of reflecting thus he had good self understanding.
Many of Dylan‟s decisions and actions during the 2015 English National Examination were rooted from the reflection he did regarding his life and English
learning process since he was young D38; D39; D41; D42. For Dylan, graduating was also an important achievement. Unfortunately, this
was in conflict with his way of seeing learning as a process D16. It was because, in order to graduate Dylan had to pass the National Examination and the
National Examination focused on result. Some of Dylan‟s deed during the National Examination preparation showed how he prioritize learning as a process
more D3; D6: D7; D26; D27; D29. Some others showed how he focused on graduating more D21-D24.
Dylan‟s father had significant influence in Dylan‟s life in general and in Dylan‟s process during the National Examination preparation in particular. One of
the indicator was Dylan‟s final decision to choose Science major even though Dylan actually preferred Language major D44; D45.
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2. Baez’s Textural-Structural Description Story and Interpretation
During the 2015 National Examination preparation, not only studying in school, Baez also studied in a course and at home B4-B29. Baez studied from
the morning till night but she did not feel tired because there was a break and there was time to meet friends B17. At school Baez studied samples of the
English National Examination questions B6. She only studied English once every two weeks B7. Even though for Baez the teacher taught quite well, Baez
thought the teacher spoke too soft B9. That was why she often got confused in class B10. Even though feeling confused, she never dared asking the teacher
anything B13. Baez studied in a course since she was in the XII
th
grade B18. There she also studied samples of the English National Examination questions
B20. She was also given tips B22. However, she studied listening less frequently here than at school B23. She only had listening in tryouts B23. Baez
was nevertheless more active here. She asked more questions to the teachers B25. It was because according to her the teachers were friendlier compared to
her teacher in class B77. Baez also prepared herself by studying at home since she was in the XII
th
grade B27. She studied Science but never studied English B29. During the preparation for the 2015 National Examination, Baez admitted
she tried harder for the National Examination compared to School Examination B3.
During the preparation for and on the D-day of the 2015 English National Examination, Baez found many difficulties in listening B30; B31. Listening was
especially difficult for her because she was not used to listen to English native speakers B30; B31. She felt inferior the first time she realized this weakness
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B32. It made her listen more attentively in listening sections B37. She also often felt nervous when studying at school B33. During the preparation she was
actually given many tips to help her to work on listening on the D-day B38; B39. However, on the D-day, all those tips did not work B43. She felt panic at
first but tried to calm herself down then B44-B47. On the D-day of the 2015 English National Examination, Baez cheated by
asking her friend the answers of some numbers B50. Baez had already decided to cheat long before the D-day came B48. Not only asking answers, Baez also
gave her answers to other friends B54-B57. Baez also made use of the examination questions leaked in Google Drive one-day before the National
Examination B62-B67. She only downloaded one of a couple packages, though B65. She only downloaded one because she did not want to be suspected. B66
She was afraid, if she was 100 right, people would notice her cheating B66. Before the 2015 National Examination results were announced, Baez felt down
and resigned B68. It was more or less one month B69. When the results came out, Baez felt happy, glad, sad, and disappointed at the same time B71-B73.
Baez‟s lived experience on the 2015 National Examination, especially on English subject, showed that she was dependent to others or other factors enough
when preparing for the examination B74- B78. Baez‟s motivation was much
affected by, especially, teachers B74- B77. Baez‟s lived experience also showed
that Baez was actually not interested in English B79. Baez‟s dependency and disinterest brought low motivation to her B76.
Other than that, Baez was also not intensely in touch with listening since she was in Junior High School B79-B82. It made her face many difficulties during
