Veronika lacks of the self-actualization needs.

63 There are some descriptions about Veronika’s characteristics as portrayed in Coelho’s Veronika Decides to Die. Veronika described herself as a young, pretty and intelligent. Veronika’s description on herself is also supported by some remarks of the other characters such as the nurse in Villete, Mari, Veronika’s mother, and other lunatics in Villete. The nurse in Villete described Veronika as a young and pretty woman. Mari, one of the lunatics in Villete also described Veronika as a young, pretty and healthy woman. Moreover, the lunatics in Villete portrayed Veronika as a woman with green eyes and brown hair. Veronika’s mother also described Veronika as a young lady of twenty-four-year old. Veronika was also described by the author as an attractive woman who is could attract others’ attention to her appearance. Furthermore, beside her physical appearance, Veronika also has some other personal characteristics that can be seen through the way she thought and interacted with other people. The author described Veronika as an organized person, critical, logical, and curious person, sympathetic person, and a person who lacks of belongingness and love needs, self-esteem and self-actualization needs. Veronika’s decision to live in a convent with strict rules proves that she is an organized person. By living in a convent with strict rules, Veronika could maintain an organized life and her relationship with others even though that it limited her to fulfill the needs of love and belongingness. Another example that shows Veronika is an organized person can be seen from her routine activities. Veronika’s preparation before committing suicide also proves that she is an organized person. 64 Besides as an organized person, Veronika was also described as a critical, logical, and curious person. It can be seen from the way how Veronika questioned and concluded about the God existence. Veronika characteristic as a critical, logical, and curious person can be seen from Veronika’s reaction to the Sufi master’s instruction in Villete. Moreover, Veronika’s reaction to the situation when she had a conversation with the two doctors shows that she is a critical, logical, and curious person who always tried to know something in details. Moreover, the author described Veronika as a sympathetic person. Veronika’s characteristic as a sympathetic person can be seen through the way she gave her attention to Zedka, Eduard, and Mari. Veronika’s characteristic as a sympathetic person can also be seen from her second reason of her decision to commit suicide. Veronika’s second reason to commit suicide shows that she is very concerned with the social situation. Furthermore, Veronika was also described as a person who lacks of belongingness and love needs, self-esteem and self-actualization needs. Veronika’s characteristic as a person who lacks of belongingness and love needs can be seen from Veronika’s decision to live in convent with strict rules. The convent’ rules have limited her to interact with others. It also limits her opportunity to join in a certain group where she can gain a best friend and a true lover. Veronika’s characteristic as a person who lacks of self-esteem needs can be seen from her suicide attempt. Veronika’s suicide attempt is an action of self disrespect that means she lacks of self-esteem needs. While, Veronika’s characteristic 65 as a person who lacks of self-actualization needs can be seen through the way how Veronika sacrificed her dream. Veronika cannot actualize herself by improving all the talents and potentialities she has. The description of Veronika’s characteristics above helps the writer to find the meaning of Veronika’s decision to commit suicide. In finding the meaning of Veronika’s decision to commit suicide, the analysis is divided into two parts. The first part is about the literal meaning and the second part is about the true meaning. There are three literal meaning provides in this study. First is Veronika is afraid of her future life. Veronika views her life in a different perspective from others. Veronika cannot positively view her life as the meaningful, precious, and beautiful one. In spite of thinking life as a meaningful one, she thinks that life is a boring routine that will end in a vain and powerlessness. Veronika’s perspective of life which is really different from other people makes her afraid of her future life. Veronika starts to think of any bad things coming to her future life. Veronika views her future life will be full of suffering and it makes her very convinced to commit suicide. Veronika’s fear of her future life becomes one reason of her suicide attempt. The second is Veronika is powerless to face the life. Veronika thinks that everything is wrong in the world and she can do nothing for the world. Veronika’s perception that she can do nothing for the world gives her a sense of complete powerlessness. Then, it leads Veronika to the question about her existence that may mean nothing to the world where she finds many wrong things and injustices happen and exist. Veronika thinks that her life does not give any roles to the world and there 66 is nothing more she can do to the world. Veronika experiences a feeling of meaningless. Furthermore, she thinks that there is not any reason to stay any longer in this world if she cannot change what should be changed. Veronika’s feeling of mean nothing to the world proves that Veronika feels a sense of complete powerlessness. It becomes the second reason of her decision to commit suicide. The third literal meaning is Veronika is afraid of her fate. Veronika’s failure of her suicide attempt leads Veronika to experience a situation of waiting for death. Veronika is informed by the doctor that she only has view days to live. It leads Veronika to feel afraid of death. Then, Veronika starts finding ways to get some more pills. Veronika’s fear of death convinces her to end her life soon. Veronika decides to end her life again. Veronika asks Zedka who suffers of depression to help her in getting the pills. Besides the literal meanings above, the writer also provides the analysis on the true meaning of Veronika’s decision to commit suicide. There are two true meaning present in this study. The first meaning is Veronika cannot control the Id. Veronika’s decision to commit suicide and her suicide attempt proves that she cannot keep the balance of the id, the ego, and the super ego. Veronika’s suicide attempt proves that unconsciously she tries to fulfill the needs of “thanatos”, a destructive drive in order to find the pleasure feeling by committing suicide. The second meaning is Veronika lacks of belongingness and love needs, self- esteem-needs, and self-actualization needs. The fact that Veronika has never felt a true love proves that she lacks of belongingness and love needs even though