34 strict rules provided her a chance to organize her life and kept her away from
troubles. However, her characteristic as an organized person also led her to commit suicide. Her way to get four packs of sleeping pills proves that her characteristic as an
organized person has helped her to commit suicide. In getting the sleeping pills, Veronika planned to tell a lie to her friends. She complained to her friends that she
got a problem to sleep at night. … In response to her complaints that she could no longer sleep at night, two
friends of her managed to get hold of two packs each of a powerful drug, used by musicians at a local nightclub p. 4.
4.1.4 Veronika is a critical, logical, and curious person.
Moreover, the author described Veronika as a, critical, logic and curious person who always gave comments and questioned something. In a certain situation
Veronika questioned the God’s existence. “In her heart of hearts, though, there was still a doubt: What if God did exist?” p. 8. After arguing with herself, Veronika
decided to answer the question using her logic. “If God exist, and I truly don’t believe he does, he will know that there are
limits to human understanding. He was the one who created this confusion in which there is poverty, injustice, greed, and loneliness…if God exist, he will
be generous with those creatures who chose to leave this earth early…” p. 8. Using her logical thought Veronika concluded that if God did exist, He would
know that she would end her life and God would not be shocked with her actions p. 8. Veronika preferred to use her logic to answer her problem, and sometimes her
logic tended to be cynical as when she reacted to Sufi master’s instruction in Villete.
35 “You see how far we’ve come?” said Veronika to Mari. “Some madman
decided it was possible to grow flowers in winter, and nowadays, throughout Europe, we have roses all year round. Do you think even a Sufi master, with
all his knowledge, could do that?” p. 100. Veronika’s logic thought prevented her to trust or to follow anything useless
and beyond her logic. Veronika always used her logic to protect herself from being influenced by other people or other conceptions.
Moreover, the author characterized Veronika as a curious person. Veronika always tried to know something in detail; she did anything just to find out the detail
information of something that she really wanted to know clearly. “Veronika noticed her reaction at once, which alerted her instincts. Had she
been here longer than she had thought? Was she still in some danger? She began to pay attention to each gesture, each movement the two men made; she
knew it was pointless asking questions; they would never tell her the truth, but if she was clever, she could find out what was going on p. 26-27.
Veronika’s reaction to the situation when she had a conversation with the two
doctors shows that she was trying to know something in detail. During the conversation with the two doctors, Veronika noticed a change in the young doctor’s
face and she became more aware of every gesture the two doctors made, and immediately she knew that there was something wrong with her. It shows that she is
trying to watch for the details. Veronika‘s ability to think logically and critically has helped her to organize
and plan something for her life. It enabled Veronika to live well-prepared and well- ordered. However, in the other side, her logical and critical thought led her to commit
suicide. How Veronika’s logical and critical though influenced her to commit suicide
