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38 first meeting, she showed her curiosity as she agrees with Augustus invitation to watch a movie together in his home. “So, see you next time, maybe?” I asked. “You should see it,” he said. “V for Vendetta, I mean.” “Okay,” I said. “I’ll look it up.” “No. With me. At my house,” he said. “Now.” I stopped walking. “I hardly know you, Augustus Waters. You could be an ax murderer.” Green, 2012:1 Hazel shows her suspicious features as she assumes that maybe Augustus is an ax murderer. She accepted Augustus invitation to justify her curiosity about him. It is obvious that Hazel was attracted to him. She wants to know more about him but she did not want to show her curiosity. When she becomes closer to him, she realizes that Augustus is the person she suited with. In chapter 2, she said “I nodded. I liked Augustus Waters. I really, really, really liked him. I liked the way his story ended with someone else. I liked his voice. I liked that he took existentially fraught free throws. I liked that he was a tenured professor in the Department of Slightly Crooked Smiles with a dual appointment in the Department of Having a Voice That Made My Skin Feel More like Skin. And I liked that he had two names . I’ve always liked people with two names because you get to make up your mind what you call them: Gus or Augustus? Me, I was always just Hazel, univalent Hazel.” Green, 2012:2 Hazel opinions about Augustus are hyped; she describes that her feelings about him are so remarkable. It is obvious that is the first time she met a person who knows her well enough and did not feel pity for her condition. She describes Augustus as the best guy she ever met, and she compares her position with him are very different. 39 “My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great star-crossed love of my life. Ours was an epic love story, and I won’t be able to get more than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears . Gus knew. Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because —like all real love stories— it will die with us, as it should ” Green, 2012:20 This line of eulogy shows her that she to be with Augustus whatever they would be. She realizes that their time is closer to the end and she wants him to know that she would be with him, whatever happens after. She added that her experience with him is like forever and she’s thankful for the chance he has given to her. “But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity . I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.” Green, 2012:20 It is clear that Hazel is making Augustus as her closest friends, who she wants to be with. Somehow, she cannot deny the reality that she loves Augustus. Hall and Lindzey, 1970: 166 stated that it is the principle of human life, as it develops each person to be uniquely stylized and dynamically unified. Hazel is a uniquely stylized person, who has her own personality, as the sum of experiences and inheritances she has been through. Her life experiences shaped her personality, to be accepting the facts and realize that time matters. In the end, after Augustus passed away she said: It was unbearable. The whole thing. Every second worse than the last. I just kept thinking about calling him, wondering what would happen, if anyone would answer. In the last weeks, we’d been reduced to spending our time together in recollection, but that was not nothing : 40 Green, 2012:21 Hazel cannot stand the way Augustus died, although she knows that does happen. In this situation, she tries to recollect the memories she had with Augustus, but it did not help much in reducing the sadness of the loneliness she suffers in that moment. She cannot stand the way she that in the end she just wants to live with someone who meant so much to her. The pleasure of remembering had been taken from me because there was no longer anyone to remember with . It felt like losing your co-rememberer meant losing the memory itself as if the things we’d done were less real and important than they had been hours before. Green, 2012:21 This line appears at the end of the novel when Hazel wants to live her life to the fullest before it becomes less real and important. Everything seems unreal for her and she cannot deny that Augustus was really meant for her. She realizes there is no one left to be remembering in her life after Augustus gone. Adler in Hjelle and Zeigler, 1992: 150 explains that the concept of the creative underlining his belief that human beings are the masters of their own fate. It creates freedom which enables a person to choose their experience, whether they choose pain, joy, or anxiety, or to defend themselves against these experiences by creating various safeguarding actions. Hazel chooses to taste all of them by striving her love with Augustus whatever happens after.