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Green, 2012:21 Hazel cannot stand the way Augustus died, although she knows that does
happen. In this situation, she tries to recollect the memories she had with Augustus, but it did not help much in reducing the sadness of the loneliness she suffers in that
moment. She cannot stand the way she that in the end she just wants to live with someone who meant so much to her.
The pleasure of remembering had been taken from me because there was no longer anyone to remember with
. It felt like losing your co-rememberer meant losing the memory itself
as if the things we’d done were less real and important than they had been hours before.
Green, 2012:21 This line appears at the end of the novel when Hazel wants to live her life to the
fullest before it becomes less real and important. Everything seems unreal for her and she cannot deny that Augustus was really meant for her. She realizes there is no one
left to be remembering in her life after Augustus gone. Adler in Hjelle and Zeigler, 1992: 150 explains that the concept of the
creative underlining his belief that human beings are the masters of their own fate. It creates freedom which enables a person to choose their experience, whether they
choose pain, joy, or anxiety, or to defend themselves against these experiences by creating various safeguarding actions. Hazel chooses to taste all of them by striving
her love with Augustus whatever happens after.
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B. Hazel’s struggle in getting her life perfection.
Maslow 1943: 12 believed that people possess a set of motivation systems unrelated to rewards or unconscious desires. He admits that people are motivated to
achieve certain needs when one need is fulfilled a person seeks to fulfill the next one, and so on. Every person is capable and unconsciously has the desire to move up the
hierarchy toward a level of self-actualization Maslow, 1943. Unfortunately, the moving progress is often interrupted by the failure to meet the lower level needs.
In The Fault in Our Stars, Hazel is motivated in getting her life perfection as she tries to fulfill all of it.
1. Hazel’s striving in knowing the ending of An Imperial Affliction
Hazel ’s striving for knowing the ending of her favorite novel An Imperial
Affliction is driven by her curiosity and ambition. Her ambition encourages her to struggle with any condition she’s facing in. When her health deteriorates, she said:
“
Can’t I just get like a lung transplant or something?” I asked. Dr. Maria’s
lips shrank into her m outh. “You would not be considered a strong candidate
for a transplant, unfortunately,” she said. Green, 2012:8
Dr. Maria’s answers hurt her a little, although she realizes it is no use wasting good lungs for her hopeless case. She continues to strive for her wish, when she asks
her mother;
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“Can we call Dr. Maria and ask if international travel would kill me?”
Green, 2012:7 This line implies that her ambition to go to Amsterdam for meeting her favorite
author although the travel itself may threaten her life. She is ready to gamble her life with the travel plan as it is her last attempt to find the author and she are did not want
to waste Augustus’s last wish to fulfill her own wish. Hazel uses her own power to
overcome her physical limitation with the cancer perk. Cancer perk is a kind of free pass, which not everyone has it because of it only for people with cancer. She found it
useful. Hazel’s cancer perks indirectly affect her communication to others. As she
said in chapter 6: “He’s not a stranger.
He’s easily my second best friend.” “Behind Kaitlyn?”
“Behind you,” I said. It was true, but I’d mostly said it because I wanted to
go to Amsterdam.
Green, 2012:6 Hazel describes Augustus position to her mom as the second best friend of her
mom. She uses the phrase ‘my second best friend’ to strengthen her bonds with Augustus in her mother eyes to make sure that she allowed going to Amsterdam with
him. She is using her mother knowledge about her social lack to empower her limitations, in this case, the trust of her mother.
People are responsible for who they are and how they behave in their life no matter what. This power of life is responsible for achieving person’s life goal and
contributes to the development of social interest. Hazel is responsible for choosing
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her destiny, when she chose to go to Amsterdam besides her deteriorates health condition. Her creative power takes part to convince her doctor to allow her to go
abroad, with her mother assist.
2. Hazel’s struggles in making her parents happy
In The Fault in Our Stars, Hazel is described as a girl who has a thyroid cancer. Her health is in a bad condition which, which forces her to carry an oxygen tank
every time.
“No, its fine,” I said. The cylindrical green tank only weighed a few pounds, and I had this little steel cart to wheel it around behind me.
It delivered two liters of oxygen to me each minute through a cannula, a transparent tube that
split just beneath my neck, wrapped behind my ears, and then reunited in my nostrils. The contraption was necessary because my lungs sucked at being
lungs.
Green, 2012:1
“Well,” I said, “I wish I could give you my cannula but I kind of really need the help.” I already felt the loss. I focused on my breathing as Jackie
handed the tubes back to me. I gave them a quick swipe with my T-shirt, laced the tubes behind my ears, and put the nubbins back in place.
Green, 2012:3 The cause why she carries an oxygen tank is because her lungs cannot function
as normal people. She said that her lungs suck being lungs, as sometimes it fulfilled with water and she cannot breathe because of it. She needs the oxygen tank to help
her breathe, and she cannot breathe normally without it. Although she can breathe without it, but it feels better when she use it. Her health condition is making her feel
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dizzy, and she cannot stand too long without sitting or leaning on some objects. She realizes that her physical needs are vary than the others. Physical needs are the
starting point of every other need, where the homeostasis process is starting from Maslow, 1943:50. Homeostasis is the process of bodys automatic efforts to
maintain a constant, normal state of the blood stream to provide a normal state of healthy condition. In simple, it is the foundation of the living creature, where they can
live and do other things in their life.
I’d taken a seat on the corner of his unmade bed. I wasn’t trying to be suggestive or anything; I just got kind of tired when I had to stand a lot.
I’d stood in the living room and then there had been the stairs, and then more
standing, which was quite a lot of standing for me, and I didn’t want to faint or
anything. I was a bit of a Victorian Lady, fainting-wise.
Green, 2012:2 Even she had a faintness feeling which makes her uncomfortable, she still tries
to hide it so people won’t know about it. In her everyday life, she tries to evade too much activity, to avoid her health deteriorates
. Hazel’s health condition is going better after she had the Phalanxifor, the drugs that doctors gave her to medicate her
lungs. After the medication, her health appears stable for a while although she had some occurrences. The uncertainty of her health condition places her in a difficult
situation, which affects her upper stage of needs. Life experiences or physical deficiency may cause an individual to fluctuate between levels of the hierarchy.
“Do you think you guys will stay together if I die?” I asked.
“I just don’t want to ruin your life or anything.”
