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4.2.1 Internal Motivation of Dawan

According to Fleming July, 06, 2010, internal motivation is a motive coming from inside of someone. According to Maslow as cited by Petri 1981, someone is motivated to act in order to fulfill her or his needs. In this study, internal motivation of Dawan is her need to be a responsible individual, an independent individual, an appreciated individual, and can play a significant role in society. Dawan also is motivated to change villager‟s thinking about women.

4.2.1.1 She wants to be a Responsible Individual

According to Maslow as cited by Petri 1981, responsibility can be categorized as a need for Self- Esteem from others involving someone‟s desire to appreciate p. 303. This categorization is the same with Nauert‟s picture of Maslow needs diagram 2010. Responsibility here is Dawan‟s will to take all the consequences of being a scholarship winner.She is ready to study in City. By getting education, Dawan wants to be a responsible person. According to Stipek in Motivation to Learn 1993 , responsibility is the picture of students‟ struggled value and the picture of individuals‟ self esteem p. 22. What Dawan will be later is on her hand. Therefore, she will learn to bear all the consequences of her decision to get education. The quotation below gives us the important meaning of being a student who wins the scholarship. Her brother, Kwai, says, “Getting the scholarship isn‟t just winning a prize”,...,“It is also means that the student will be bearing heavy responsibilities” p.24. The pertinent student should understand all the consequences which will be faced. The knowledge received is not only for her or 33 him, freezing in mind but it should be shared and applied in the real world. In order to get the best education, the student should study hard and do his or her best in all classes. For Dawan, it is a big duty but she is ready to shoulder it. „It‟s fine for you to spout off ideals like that,‟ her brother interrupted rudely, his voice growing louder and sharper at every sentence. „But what can you do to bring them about? You‟re only a girl. You won‟t be able to fight, or to argue loudly, or to lead people in times of crisis. All you‟re good at is studying – that‟s how you got the scholarship in the first place.‟ Dawan‟s hands were clenched so tightly that they were shaking. „Shut up‟ She felt like screaming. „I‟m every bit as good as you are Shut up‟ But she only said coldly, „And you think you can take on these responsibilities? You can fight and argue and lead, and help make a better place for the rest of us to live in?‟ Kwai struck his chest with his hand. „Yes, I can‟ he claimed brashly. Dawan stood stock-still and glare up at her brothe r. „Well so can I, little brother,‟ she said acidly p.51. From this quotation, it can be said that Dawan is ready to endure this duty. She really understands what the meaning of a student is and what she should do as the winner of the scholarship. It is not easy to do but she promises to his doubtful brother that she can do it and she is ready to shoulder this responsibility.

4.2.1.2 She wants to be an Independent Individual